Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
So here I am. I feel like stir fried shit. I have been triggered to slip into depression with anxiety withe suicidality and homocidal tendencies. I had worked hard to get my depression under control since 2020 and just like that, BOOM! Right bk where u started. I feel so angry, vicious, murderous. I have already tried to hurt myself as well as my ex. That's how bad the rage gets. I don't wanna be like this but I guess I'm gonna have to try my hardest to rebuild myself again. What a set back. I don't even wanna live at this point. The pain is too much. I don't wanna feel anymore pain from those whom I thought loved me. I've lived long enough where enough is enough. Wish me luck!
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I haven't written in my diary on my computer since May because I thought that my computer was dying. I got away from writing but my computer is hanging in there. I think that I will start writing in it again. It's so therapeutic.
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Years ago, I won a mirrored armoire from my job. It's in my bedroom but I rarely stand in front of it. Yesterday, I had to have a dexascan done so I had to change into a gown. There was a full length mirror in the changing room. I'm aware that I gained 5 to 7 pounds over the last year from cheating on Keto but I didn't know what it looked like. It was a reality check.
I had an issue when i was in my twenties of severe swings in my depression cycle. It was caused by my body stopping producing testosterone (hypogonadism).
It may not hurt to have your doctor run a blood test to check the levels of different hormones to see if that may be a cause.
Another cause could be any new medications you may be taking.
I had an uncle who was on effexor XR for nerve pain. He got very angry all of a sudden and threatened to kill my mother, my father, and me.
What i think happened was he started taking CBD oil without talking to his doctor. I know everyone tends to think of CBD as a magic pill but it CAN change how the body metabolizes medications (so does Marijuana) so the dosages have to be adjusted.
Try to stay strong Bullseye I hope it gets better.
Hang in there - life has lots of ups and downs, but things will get better for you
Please seek treatment, hopefully medication can help, and you can return telling people how you surmounted your demons. Then perhaps you can people like me who have spouses dealing with depression, and we don't know how to help.