I have been struggling with depression for about 20 years, since I was about 15 or so. My work history has absolutely no coherency to it whatsoever and has more holes than a block of Swiss cheese. Potential employers don't seem to like gaping holes in one's work history. There are times when I do fine and there are others where I will let the depression get the best of me and disappear from the radar. My work life has been a combination of bad decisions on my part and some bad luck.

I am now 35 years old and feel like such a loser. I did manage to get a 4 year degree. I am thinking about grad school but just can't seem to focus on anything. My mind is my worst enemy. My self esteem is non existent. I am also single, male, and live with a relative. My situation is not very conducive to dating or marriage. In fact, given my history of problems I am definitely doing to get myself sterilized because someone like me has no business bringing children in the world. From what I can tell, women seem to want a guy with a good job and a future.

All that being said, can anyone relate? If so, how did you overcome employment related barriers? Your insight would be greatly appreciated.