Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I suffered with severe anxiety for almost a year and was put on medication and after that my depression came on like a ton of bricks. I was diagnosed with clinical depression. I think it was on its way for a while though, but what seemed to trigger it was the thought that i didnt love my husband anymore and after that i spiraled out of control. I am being treated with prozac, and it does work to an extent. When i feel good i dont question it, or think too much about anything. I love him and he is the best husband ever, BUT when i feel the depression coming on, i start to question feelings, thoughts, emotions, well just about everything, and then i start to not care about anything. After that i completely lose my feelings of love and this is what bothers me the most. I feel like im on a roller coaster, in love, out of love, in love, out of love. Up and down. Im almost to the point where i scared to love because i feel like im lookin over my shoulder cause i know its going to be taken away again. When i feel like this i cant even look at him because i feel so guilty and i become soooooo overwhelmed that i just weep. Ive started to sleep alot just to escape and i have no energy to go anywhere or do anything. When this happens im not sure if its true these feelings or if its just the depression making me feel this way. Or if im depressed cause i feel this way, but like i said when i feel good, everything is fine. Has anyone else ever experienced this? I hope someone can read this and hopefully help me out. Sorry so long......
That's what I go through. It really is horrible. You don't know if y ou have a great relationship that is so valuable or if you have a bad one that keeps you in the depressive place!
Then you really think your crazy trying to figure out what's going on.
Makes it so hard on the relationship because we are all over the map with our emotions.
My husbnd is terrific in so many ways....not so great in a few minor areas, but we have fallen out of love from all of this. We are still going to give i another chance to get it right. I need to get well first!
Don't do anything towards major decisions while under depression's spell. We don't think right when that devil takes hold. Think it's okay to reevaluation what may be missing/wrong in the relationship for you and explain this to him. You'll probably discover he may be feeling just as confused and bewildered as you are. Give it some time. The depression episode will subside and you both can address those issues that came out while you were under the "spell", once you are better able to work on them. Hang in there.