Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I have been suicidally depressed for almost two years. I hate myself at the moment but am working on it. Well, a few months back a woman crosses my path. She pursued me and was all over me like a bad suit. I thought she was going to be my savior and rescue me from this miserable existence.
She made all kinds of promises and even talked about me getting her pregnant and getting married after two weeks of knowing her. In the back of my mind I knew this person was bad news, but I continued on because I am so lonely and any kind of diversion is a welcome one. My self esteem is crap and in my mind I felt like she would be the only woman who would have anything to do with me, because I am so depressed, unemployed, nearly homeless, etc. She said she totally understood and would be there for me. Well, as is always the case, she turned out to be full of hot air. She is a total flake and has left me hanging on several occasions with no apology. She rarely calls when she says she is going to.
I am blowing this way out of proportion. The whole thing is making me sick. This is definitely not someone I could see myself with long term any way, but my mind is still telling me I am a failure once again, and how nothing will ever work out. Her blowing me off like this has just added to the sense of hopelessness.
I don't know about you, but I have learned that me getting better has to take priority of everything. I am too emotionally sick to get into any kind of romantic relationship. That being said, this thing hurts sooooo bad! Talk about dissapointment:( Depression and anxiety has screwed up my thinking so bad.
She made all kinds of promises and even talked about me getting her pregnant and getting married after two weeks of knowing her. In the back of my mind I knew this person was bad news, but I continued on because I am so lonely and any kind of diversion is a welcome one. My self esteem is crap and in my mind I felt like she would be the only woman who would have anything to do with me, because I am so depressed, unemployed, nearly homeless, etc. She said she totally understood and would be there for me. Well, as is always the case, she turned out to be full of hot air. She is a total flake and has left me hanging on several occasions with no apology. She rarely calls when she says she is going to.
I am blowing this way out of proportion. The whole thing is making me sick. This is definitely not someone I could see myself with long term any way, but my mind is still telling me I am a failure once again, and how nothing will ever work out. Her blowing me off like this has just added to the sense of hopelessness.
I don't know about you, but I have learned that me getting better has to take priority of everything. I am too emotionally sick to get into any kind of romantic relationship. That being said, this thing hurts sooooo bad! Talk about dissapointment:( Depression and anxiety has screwed up my thinking so bad.
By all means, focus on getting yourself together. But that does not mean you need to abandon all relationships, just be careful!
We all need and want too be loved, accepted, and wanted...
Thats what we are made for ...Yet some out there are just out there to promote their own needs and material gain.
Our judgement, especially on some medications can be effected.
Please for You own benefit slow way down.......take it slowly....
If it seems too good too be true....."It probably is just that"..beware.
Know that You are a unique individual and have your worthy place in society and in Life....not everyone is looking out for our best interests...even in DS.