Depression with anxiety for me has been a prolonged feeling of extreme sadness along with constant worry about many things. It is scary because one feels isolated even if people are around, but medication can help and it has helped me. However, recently because of circumstances in my marriage and where I live and having so many regrets Depression has managed to creep back into my life. I'm trying to fight it with the help of friends, etc., but it is difficult because I don't like feeling out of control. Along with the sadness comes the crying which seems hard to control even in public. It's not as bad as it was five years ago when I lost my interest in food and got skinny, etc. felt pain in the shower from the water on my body. Could not stand loud noise; still have that a little. I hope that answers your question and now you have some idea which my brothers did not understand when I was going through it full blown if you will. I was actually afraid to get out of bed, drive, etc. It was bad and now I would say that when it creeps back in because I'm unhappy with current things in my life it's about halfway there, but I seem to know how to handle it a little bit better. Never the less it is still horrible. Take care

Depression is a cycler. It has a tendency to come and go depending on "triggers" and stresses in life.
When I was first diagnosed, I didn't know what was wrong with me. I would start crying for no reason. I would feel unwanted and unloved. I had times when I would isolate myself from everyone and I only felt content when I was asleep. I have dealt with depression since 1995 and I have been doing well. I know what the "signs" are now so, I know when it's coming. I still take medication that helps me as well. Hope you get to feeling better.

That is so true. It does come and go in cycles. I have dealt with it for many years. I have also isolated myself at times, and I am content when time to go to sleep also. I am back on my meds, but it hasn't fully worked yet. I do know to stay on them for now on, only if I had paid attention to the signs....twenty nine years I should have know better.

I really identify with the cycles thing. I have good days for no reason and then out of the blue I'm sad. I feel like everybody secretly laughs at me behind my back, imagine thousands of negative scenarios from friends hating me to fighting people for no reason. I feel angry sometimes for no obvious reason, I think about death a lot, and I feel something that is better described as emptiness than sadness. It's sort of like remembering how a nice car used to work that's broken and rusty now. Sometimes I can power through it, and sometimes it crushes me and I want to give up. But I guess the good days are kinda there to give me a reason to keep going? I don't know. That's just my experience.

for me its like a constant feeling of being sick, and it feels like there is a constant crushing weight on my chest, I can't breathe. And then i feel like I am constantly going to cry, like all the time. I won't want to leave the house or talk to anyone. But at the same time I wish I had something to do or someone to hang out with. But will cancel almost any plans I make. My emotions will start to roller coaster from sad to uncontrollable rage.

Honestly its a little different for everyone. But even on a "good" day I will still have thoughts of suicide.

Thank you for your help and understanding. Peace to all of us.

I have a constant feeling of the overwhelming fear. Almost like I've been scared but the feeling of realizing I'm ok never passed

I super relate to the cycles of depression. For the most-part I become sad and feel that I have no reason attached to the sadness. I often search for reasons because I think there should be one. I feel like I am in a cloud and have a really hard time looking at things positively. It's as if I am wearing smudged glasses; I see and interpret other peoples actions differently. Sunlight, diet (msg/processed foods/sugar= not good for depression), pms, and my thyroid are all contributing factors along with a family history of depression. I also have anxiety related to specific incidents that are also a contributing factor. When I switched my diet I was amazed at how much that helped with the cycles. I still have them, but it is much less intense than what it was. Physically I feel very tired and worn out, heavy, lethargic; aches and pains seem worse. Thank you for asking and I hope this is helpful. Feel free to ask me more questions or message me.

Well, I feel really, really pissed off that I am so dam miserable.I hate where I am , who I am and above all, I hate what I did with my life-- all the opportunities I missed and all the chances I blew. I hate that I am too sick to live in my own home, alone, where I was happy. I get so blue, all I can do is cry. Sometimes, I think, put an end to this.All I can think of is what a rotten mess everything I ever did was. OK ??