I have been down/depressed all week.  Everything seems to be going wrong.  On Monday morning, I ironed a pair of black dress pants and they didn't fit.  I had another pair of pants to wear but I have not had to deal with clothes not fitting in years.  I think it was on Monday morning that i also found a really cool old fashioned lamp smashed on the floor.  i remembered something falling but i forgot about it.  On Tuesday, my badge cover broke so I went to the office to get another and on my way back, my work pocketbook strap broke.  I had to go to the gym but planned on going straight home but I went to Goodwill for another pocketbook.  Then i decided to stop for salad stuff at a produce place.  So 3 things broke and something didn't fit.  Then yesterday morning, as i was getting ready, i realized that i needed a sweater that i ordered from Kohl's that i had to open boxes to find.  It was frigging huge!  Then my earrings gave me a hard time.  As I was pulling out of my driveway, I realized that i didn't put my watch on.  i was sighing on the way to work.  i haven't been depressed in a while.  So I had to stop at Kohl's on the way home to see if I could exchange the sweaters.  Couldn't find them so i went back to returns and was sent up front.  The line was super long.  It did move pretty fast though.  I lost my Kohl's cash and only got back $10 for 2 sweaters.  But i was given $4.71 in Kohl's cash.  So I bought some Christmas cards.  They weren't subject to the 30% off and they were expensive but I am done shopping at Kohl's for a while so I just got them with the voucher.  I came home to eat dinner and do some overdue online training for work.  I started texting with a friend.  Then I got anxious about changing into my pjs and eating dinner.  I was too tired to do the training, again.  I was in bed at 6:56 p.m.  Oh, I forgot, I got on the scale yesterday morning and was 144.0.  I was just frozen on the scale.  I haven't weighed over 142.8 until Monday when i was 143.0.  i did eat a bad snack at work on Monday to get rid of it.  It was the last of my bad snacks that i've been eating since June.  Also, yesterday, another hall monitor was talking to me and a student came by and said hi to her but not me.  She asked me if i was chopped liver.  I said some girls just zoom in the bathroom and never talk to me.  So I was feeling bad about that.  So it hasn't been a good week so far.  My bestie said that if I am not getting enough steps in at work now that we have more hall monitors to do the escorting, that i will have to find another way to get my steps in.  I guess I will have to do at least one extra day at the gym.  I have been a little depressed because we have 3 new hall monitors and 2 of them became instantly bonded with some of the students, kids that don't talk to me at all.  i had to put things in perspective.  I am a more serious person.  I also don't harrass the kids.  They have enough on their minds.  The only thing i can think of is last year, I yelled at the students when there were more than 3 girls in the bathroom because i was so anxious about getting in trouble.  Some students are super sweet.  I have always been good with kids.  So my efforts to get home after work didn't happen.  I was so excited when I woke up on Monday morning because i thought that i would get a lot of time at home.  I fight negativity.  Today I have to stop at the gym and then i can come home.  it is December 11th and my house is a mess.  i guess I'm going to fail at my NY Resolution to clean my house.  Yes, I am in tears.