Hi DepPerf
I don't know where to begin. You have a lot on your plate. Do you have
a counselor or anyone to talk to about all of this? When I feel that things are beginning to go south I usually contact my counselor and it helps greatly.
As far as self compassion, I recommend trying to eliminate the guilt and shame that I am hearing in your post.
I just breezed through an article about accommodations not being taken seriously in college. Do you have an access office with a coordinator? You might want to be in touch with that person. If not, could you find out who handles accommodations? By law the college is require to provide reasonable accommodations. There is a great website called JAN--If you look at that website it breaks accommodations down by disability, etc...
It's easy to get overwhelmed with all of this but hang in there.

I agree with Jenny Theresa try and give yourself some slack. Your going through a difficult spot and people generally d. on't understand depression. Don't get me wrong there are some. your in a difficult spot you were a little less able to make good choices as far as hurting your foot. Try to let it go with yourself . If it were a friend you would probably understand that it was a bad time for them
I get snippy when I am depressed sometimes. That can be problematic for me, because the person will just snap back at you. Try to avoid people who trigger you. Hopefully, you")) meet some understanding and caring people. I don't know that your roommate minds you not doing as much. Maybe if you have a little extra money you can hire someone to do some of the cleaning. Try to tell your roommate the pain physical and emotionsl.is affecting your keeping up. And for now would they mind picking up some of the chores your having a hard time with. Otherwise, maybe you can hire someone or ask a family member to. Helo. It sounds like no one understands in your life right now. Maybe an in person. Depression group. Hope you feel better

We can't always make people in our lives understand how we feel. They are living with us and when we are not functioning well, they see it from their perspective -- which may or may not be helpful to us. I am going to suggest you get to the counseling center at your college. If you are doing online only college, find something local. You deserve to have the right brain health care to function decently well in life. You may benefit from medications or having a diagnosis. I think the depression could be the holding back of getting things done. My sister has not unpacked her house and I've noticed she goes from up up up to down down down. I used to not notice but it concerns me at this point. So the people who love you are going to be concerned because they love you and want you to have a good, happy, functional life. And I had a friend at masters school who had to insist our professors took her disability accommodations seriously. It seemed to be a constant fight for her because they did not recognize her in person as having physical issues that limited her in some ways. My husband and I have disabilities and my kids all have brain health disorders and it constantly amazes me how ignorant people can be. Even with me and my kids and husband having disabilities my sister who is a college professor is remarkably ignorant and blaming of students needing accommodations. I give her a hard time for thinking this way, so I am on your side. She sees it as being harder on her that the students don't do X or Y or get extra time or need the computer to be accessible and it irritates me if I can be honest with you. Especially since I see her own mental health as tenuous and she is often depressed acting and then manic acting but she won't consider mental health help. So continue to take care of yourself foremost. Make a schedule to get things done at the house. You will feel better about yourself if you accomplish small tasks each day instead of watching TV or movies. Do one hour a day, if that is doable. Big hugs, you have support and encouragement on this forum.

It is a constant fight I have been fighting most my life and i am tired

telling me to go to my counseling center at school sounds good in theory but if i am honest about my mental health i could lose all credibility . it is a common occurence in graduate counseling programs I recently wrote a paper about disability advocacy and art therapy: the wounder healer archetype
if you look at the american journal of art therapy there are many articles of art therapists saying they felt the same way being disabled in their program. feels like uncharted territory and u realize why the major of therapists are white, upper middle class non disabled women

thank you blubird you seem to understand however graduate school has put a finanical strain on me i can barely afford groceries but do not qualify for snap

while I love my job and my program in learning to be an art therapist there seems to be a divide that alienates me from my peers

Hello everyone I’m new to the group and I’m hoping that being in a group of people who are in a similar situation will help. I’ve been depressed for as long as I can remember. I’ve been on every med you can think of and therapy hasn’t really been affective. To make matters worse, I lack family, friends and an active social life. If it wasn’t for work I wouldn’t leave my house. I have been so depressed and lonely for so long, I forgot how to be happy. Is there anyone out there who can relate?

Sending you support & strength & hope
Big hug <3

Oh, yes, if you are in a masters in counseling program, speaking up too much personal information can "red flag" you. If you are in the USA, your school's counseling program can not give information about you to the counseling program. It is illegal. But yes, I understand your point of view and potential worry a school therapist will tell a professor who tells the administration.

I admire your goals and the way you persevere with your education. Grad school can increase the I am so tired feeling. I saw every student in my program being tired and overwhelmed and stressed. I was spending over 30 hours a week doing homework, writing the long papers required and going to class. Let alone getting housework done, cooking, working my job. Some students did quit!

If there is something you can do to help yourself not have so much stress, consider it. I wish you the best. It may not sound like I understand but I actually do.

Remember you really are a strong person because not everyone even pursues this type of hard education. You are smart and capable also. My degrees are in social work and in one of my CEU courses to keep my state license after graduation, I did the one with the research about how many social workers came into the field because they had brain health disorders or childhood trauma (about 1/3 entering with this) and how many felt they had new brain health disorders 5 years into this career. It was about 1/2 feeling new depression and burn out, lack of energy after five years into the career. So yes, the wounded healer stuff can be realistic.

The professional organizations and the universities don't talk about it to the students or give them skills to overcome the stress of the helper professions. Take care of you. We got preached at about self care, do self care, but we were not taught self care skills. I still remember a professor who was a big therapist guy telling a student who bared her soul in class about her bi-polar disorder that the classroom was not her therapy session. Ouch. So I get where you are coming from.

I wanted to add that in the USA, food insecurity among college students is like twice what the rate is among families. Yes, this stressor is huge. My college and most of the in person ones in my state have started food pantries for the students. You did not have to prove income, just use a student ID.

Give yourself a chance to breathe the beauty of all you have and are accomplishing in your young life. Don't let your desire for control in worth overshadow your opportunity to savor the present. Those boxes will always remain as part of your life's landscape. Time as in the present is precious. Hugs!

sorry you are going through so much. I hope you get a chance to have your ankle looked at. you right, people get tired of hearing about other people's long term problems. Well not everyone but many people do. This is a good place to vent. You shouldn't be hard on yourself because you are doing the best you can, way more than most people, and why can't your boyfriend do the damned dishes?

Thanks everyone for listening