You have to confess. I recommend confessing to a counsellor or a priest. Someone who won't take it any further. But you have to confess. And then, you have to keep looking at it till it loses all its power.

I think everything we do and everything done to us creates some kind of electrical charge in our brains. And when we have lies, or hide things, or don't confront things,the electrical charges tangle and become worse. And when we reaffirm the truth, they earth themselves and dissipate.

so we have to be true. We have to be uncomplicated and real. But that doesn't mean clothes rending and breast beating and hair tearing mea culpas in the village square. It just means accepting what you have done as being an act of a human being. Understanding that what you did was part of human nature. Learning where you went wrong. Discovering how doing harm without intending to can make you feel. And letting that feeling happen to you, flow through you, be fully experienced by you without you blocking it. You have to learn to accept not only what you have done, but the consequences of it. And then you may need to do something about those consquences.

Sometimes you have to confess to the person you wronged, and let them call the shots on fixing any consequences. But talk to a counsellor first before you do anything you can't undo!!

Suffering like that is terrible. I have been there, and you need help to get out of it. If you plan to do something again, call 911 or suicide hotline. You definitely need to find a good therapist to help. Your doctor may also want to give you something for depression. Friend me if you want to talk further.

You are extremely special. Things sometimes happen when we least expect it. You are so special to me because I too am in need of support but have found a desire to help you in myself. It seems as though I get through my troubles easier when I am helping others. Your post was the first I saw when I signed in the DS today. That I don't think is a coinsidence. It was meant to be. The couple of posts above mine suggest following a higher power and also contacting a theopist or hotline. When in desperate need of help these are excellent ideas. Sometimes just talking through problems relives some of the stress. I think that writing things down also can relieve a little stress. You are very stressed so anything you can go to lighten/brighten you load would be beneficial. I was once in counciling and learned that get through things moment by moment, minute to minute can help. Take a few minutes, maybe 10 and try to find a positive in that time. For me looking out the window and seeing a pretty flower is sometimes enough to give me a little hope. Just look at the beauty around you that we did not create. God has created all things that are so beautiful. After 10 minutes or about try to focus another another positive. These things can get your through the day, each on relieving a little load from your shoulders. You will have to find the strength in yourself to find that little bit of positive and move forward with it. For me it sure helps. I hope this idea will help you. In the meantime see a Dr. if you have one or find a recommendation.

Hey, I just looked out the window and saw a beautiful male cardinal. I will be here for you if you want to chat just like the people above me. You have a lot of support.

The past is "PASSED"!!!!! We can not change the past, we can own it and learn to move on. I was once a Biker, a drug user and an alcoholic. I have been drug and alcohol free now for 43 yrs, this coming Sept. I have a terrible past of hurting people, lawlessness, fighting, run-ins with the cops. I helped ruin my first marriage of 10 yrs. Today, I am drug, alcohol free, remarried and a Pastor of a church. Give your past the the Lord, repent of it and move on with your life. If you aren't a Christian, seek the help of a Pastor or contact me.

you ...feel remorse ........so much so you are. In this depreshion ...you have already been forgiven ..by God ..........you need to leave the past fall back into the past and live one day at a time and be the best you you can be and not make those same mistakes again .......and in time you will be able to forgive your self ..........for now ..know that God knowes how much you regret ..what you have done ........and if you don't do it again .....know you are forgiven ..by God ......................take very good care of your self ...........sometimes we need to talk .....but not to just anyone ...a phicitrist .......just to get it out ........so you can move forward ..................and get the help you need .........I will keep you in my prayers ...take very good care of your self ...God bless ...

Thank you all so much. I appreciate the advice and support. I sent you all friend requests to chat further :)

Hello Charlie,
I am sorry to hear of the pain that you are experiencing.
I agree with Bridgie, sometimes it helps to talk to someone. I would recommend a licensed counselor. (If you need help or recommendations, I know a place that will give a free phone consultation.)
I think that one of the greatest things that helps me to walk in forgiveness is that I know that I am forgiven. Jesus took the punishment for my wrongdoing. No matter what I have done, God promised to take away our wrongdoings "as far as the east is away from the west" (See Psalm 103.)
I am glad that you were able to pray.:)
I hope that as you continue to seek Him, that you would feel His love and forgiveness.
God bless!