Please don't hurt yourself or try anything that will put your life in danger, this will only make things worse and cause more aggrevation. Just try tO focus on one positive thing in your life. Even better get a piece of paper start writing down things you are happy or grateful to have. If you feel your going to do something get a friend, family member or neighbor to drive you to your local hospital or to a psychiatric hospital. Please dont do anything, things will get better.

ive found that when most people say they want to end their life, its not because they want to be dead... its because they want to stop living the life they are living, and start to live a different, happier one.

if this is true for you, then youre in luck! because you CAN change your life so much that you can call today "the old me".

its a lot of work, and its not easy at all... but then, what ever is?

i cant tell you how to get started, because i know nothing about you, except that youre in crisis right now... but when this crisis ends (and it WILL)... give some thought to how you can start to change the things in your life that suck so much.

if you need help, im happy to help... please feel free to post to me or IM me or whatever (this goes for anyone by the way!)

i dont have any magic wands to wave, or i would have already... but sometimes a perspective from someone whos not intimately involved with your life can really help a lot.

*hugs*

it will get better