You definitely are not alone. I have struggled with depression my entire life. Then panic, anxiety and agoraphobia started in 1995, then my son died in 2003......
I am turning 47 this year and I do not see the point of being here. I rarely ever leave my house. I have chronic pain which has made it impossible to do anything! I feel like all I do I exist in constant pain and I am alone. Husband walked out while I was recovering from a huge surgery that saved my life.
Just know that you are not alone......

you are not alone aka.not by a long shot..i am getting up there in age as well i am 58 yrs old and been fighting major depression since about the age of 14....i know this is not much help but i can relate..it is a very lonely way to live....sure could use a good friend right now.

HUGS, SWEETHEART...........................
GBU
DRENA B
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While I totally understand how you feel and how knowing that many others feel the way you do (I often do), especially lately. I tell my therapist, I don't care if I die.

I think you need something else (besides support from the people who know exactly what you're going through). You need someone who can be an inspiration to you to finish the journey - if possible. Negativity and depression is so contagious and you also need some success stories (I hope there are at least more ).

I understand how you feel. There is a line in the movie "The Shawshankk Redemption" that stays with me - "Either get busy living or get busy dying". The choice is yours. Your on the fence, really because thhe will to live is really strong despite your desire to not feel and just die. Find a GOOD therapist (which is hard) to help you make this very big decision.

I also struggle tremendously w/my (major) depression; suicidal ideations occur daily. I, also have dealt w/this since around the age of 12 & will soon be 50 - I am also extremely fatigued w/this persistent battle for survival...
Although it is important to realize you are not alone, it should not be satisfactory or comforting for you to remain in this mindset; do not look for this as validation to remain where you are. I agree w/Trudilu to look for inspiration from those that persevere in spite of their troubles...

I know this was posted about a month ago... but you still aren't alone. I struggle with depression too.

I am a late or early poster . I have problems with this also, And want to throw in the towel sometimes. But I refuse to let it get the best of me. You just reaching out is the right thing to do. You are not alone.

Funny but I posted this 2 years ago and I still feel the same way if not worse. I have been diagnosed with advanced liver disease and all of the signs and symptoms are showing. Love to all of you. I hope you have gotten better.

I can totally relate to where you are. If it wasn't for our 2 dogs I probably would never get up out of bed at all. It's bad enough that I hate leaving the house just to take them for walks. I know that when you are in a deep depression, you just don't feel like doing anything. My advice to you is to get a dog....something you have to take walks with that will get you out of bed, and possibly, no probably will get you out of the house, and now that the summer is arriving the sunlight might do you some good. Just my humble opinion though....