Young lady, why do you wish to die? You are young and have your whole life ahead of you. You have so many different things to experience in life. Sure, there are going to be hard times, sad times and other stuff but, everyone goes through these things. It's a part of growing older.

Life is precious. I have held the hands of people who have died, stood by their bedsides and watch them take their last breath. I have done funerals of babies a year old. I have seen the saddened faces, the tears and the uncontrollable weeping and moaning of loved ones when their loved one died. I lost a son in a car wreck. I know what it's like to lose someone I love. In the past 10 yrs. I lost 2 half brothers and 3 half-sisters. I have lost my mom and dad as well. Life is worth living, even though we don't always understand why things happen the way they do. God made you for a purpose and He has a plan for your life. I am here if you want to talk.

So, Renal Failure sucks and it will make you wish you were really dead. It hurts physically a lot. Go to your parents and ask them to get you help from a Therapist. If you can't go to your parents, then go to your school Counselor. Doing stupid things like OD'ing on Ibuprofen will do nothing but cause your Liver and Kidney's damage and you don't want that pain added to your emotional pain.

You've got a long life ahead of you, things may look like they're not worth living at 15, but outlooks change rapidly as you grow up. Get some help.