Sounds like your BPD is out of fucking control.

I have no idea how to treat that.

Let's see... CBT has success. Maybe if you do the opposite of what your symptoms tell you to do?

And that would be... what?

Cutting your face and acknowledging your pain? Try to do something else.

It might be your BD, but I haven't known someone with BPD who didn't also have BD.

Although I've never had issues with cutting, I have considered cutting my face as a teen, due to low self-esteem and an eating disorder. Looking back on it, I'm really glad that I didn't, as I am starting to build confidence in my appearance, abilities, intelligence, myself.

I am not judging you when I say this, (as I have experienced similar issues in my life), but cutting your face and body doesn't solve anything. It may provide some temporary relief, but your pain, insecurities, depression, etc. are still there; these are the problems you need to address. I hope you have a therapist and/or trustworthy friend you can talk to about this Also, yoga, exercise, meditation, a favorite hobby, or spending time with your family, friends and pets are much healthier ways to cope with your mental health conditions.

There will be a day where you find joy and confidence, and you may regret the cutting. It gets better. Hugs

I cut my hair out of frustration and self hate. then I realaized that life is to short for that. whatever is going on in my life I have to face it with a brave heart and patiance. cutting wont solve anything! if I ever feel angry or frustrated I change to sports wear and go for a quick run on the block or the tracks ...either that or just hitting my pillow lol but I feel better afterwards because I let out the negative energy in me! listen! not all the people will understand what you go though in your mind! not all will appreciate how strong you are facing your own demons alone. so don't try to let your frustration out on you by hurting yourself or them! nothing will change! your problems wont be solved like that! you seem like a beautiful young lady, and very mature so maybe you should start to think about how harming yourself will only make you drown deeper into this dark depression of a hole! you should train your mind how to be controlled! right now your mind is what controlling you! and your life! you have to push yourself to change your path in life! you will fail over and over when you try! but don't give up! it's not easy! but you can get out of it! and maybe it is time to ditch all the negative people out of your life! good things will happen and you will feel alot better!

I wish you all the luck and don't ever harm yourself or your pretty face no one and nothing is worth it! sometimes you have to be selfish when it comes to your mental health! so be selfish towards your body and face and emotions and don't let people be a priority over your your mental health....EVER people and things can be replaced easily but your health and emotions are far from being able to be replaced so hold on to them because it's easy to slip in depression but it's hard to get out of it.

Call your doctor's emergency line tomorrow. If they can't see you, they can have someone talk to you over the phone. You may need to consider hospitalizations. Those scars are for life and will require surgery in the future, which is expensive and may or may not work. If it's that bad, I honestly think you need to go to the hospital.

I agree with soul searcher. Go to the ER for a self admit before cutting your face again. You have no idea how many people now and in the future will need your face to light up their life.

After my last attempt at suicide I had someone, a stranger I passed by a couple of times a week, notice I had been away and told me she had missed my smile. You could have knocked me over with a feather! I had no idea any one ever noticed me.

I realized that I had no idea of the ripples I made in the lives of strangers let alone people closer to me.

Get help. You are so worth it!

L.

I think you need to call your doctor to ....since your cutting has gone that far .....as to be cutting your face .....you need help ...now ....I hope you go and get the help you need ......so you can stop hurting your self ..and begin to love your self .......you take very good care of your self ....God bless

I just don't understand cutting....go to ER....hugs

Yes go to the ER and get help right away.

stop cutting there other ways to cope im sorry your in such pain , go to er they might help or crisis line

Quit it. It sounds like you are looking for attention and this is not the way to get it.

April you have posted all over DS. It seems you are looking for sympathy. I took the bait now deal with me.