It feels like it won't ever end. The pain. The strrugle. I wish only peace .I no longer reach for happiness. I don't deserve it anymore. Since I believe God abandoned me since Anorexia became my best friend. She convinced it was ok to punish myself not eating. She also said taking laxatives till becoming sick it's ok. So our Father forgot me . I tried for 4 years to recover and I simply can't escape this hell. Please help.
I don’t know. Today is the anniversary of something I don’t want to think about and I don’t know if that’s why or not but I feel miserable. Like suddenly I just feel terrible about life.... I started crying and it was like there was a black hole inside. I have so much stress going on at once and I’m afraid no one cares, and if so where does that leave me? Plus I’m sick and my throat...
I'm feeling very very bad and I feel like I really need someone to talk to.If anyone out there is willing to help lift someone up who is really feeling down and out, I would really appreciate it.