Hello BlueYonder..I do the same thing when overwhelmed..I know this sounds trite and overused but honestly all we can do is just take it day at a time. I get worrying about the future and being paralyzed with fear. I get this way also..Living in the present has a lot of meaning to it. It sure is true..Not always easy to do, especially if you have anxiety or are just overwhelmed with life situations. I don't like saying things and people thinking that it is easier said than to do..Believe me, I get how it isn't easy to live in the present and just take each day as it comes. I know you have people on here who believe in you...I do also..Maybe it will help to hear that from those who care..I know there are people who care on this site. Be kind to yourself..Life is handing you some tremendous obstacles at the moment..Take care of you also...

I know that future needs plans not worries...and ohiogirl is right about trying to live in present...how about making yourself a quick gratitude list of things you have or are able to say about your life that are great right this moment?

Suicidal thoughts are not uncommon...it is fearful to us because some of us (Me included) have tried to off ourselves before...and the thing is surviving a suicide attempt can leave you worse sometimes than they were before the attempt...fellow I know in AA stepped out in front of truck on highway....he know has horrible walking troubles...and his brain is damaged as well..

I surely hope that what they say is true...This too shall pass! I want to have it pass from you one second from now and be gone forever...hugs bill

BYD said: " overwhelmed with all I have to do."

Compartmentalize, BYD. Write all of these things on separate sheets of paper, then organize those sheets into what is most important, what is quicker or easier to do, then go to work on them and ask God to help you through each one as you begin doing them.

Many of us have been there and I am in that state now to some degree. My fear is physical and financial on top of the emotional. Fortunately I do have a couple of positives to hang on to. I am retired and do not have to be concerned with where my shelter and food come from. Regrettably, new meds will put me on a budget where I cannot afford to repair my car for some time. this type of situation was totally debilitating some years back but my attitude now is that I see older people, like me, walking. Seeing others making it encourages me to try. There are financial nets for people who try. Inasmuch as what to do now, find a way to distract yourself. Go to a mall and walk or a library and borrow a book or DVD. Just remember, no matter what, there are solutions to your issues.

When I hit this state of panic I make plans. Even a tiny chore being done, like dishes or housework, can help this panic lift for me.

If it's money, finding out exactly where you are (excel is fantastic) and then fiddling the numbers so you can survive, is great. If you have to move house to make your budget work, move house. I have recently bought a bike so I can bike the 34km to work each day. This will save me $3,000 a year.

Find solutions, even if only one tiny solution to one tiny problem. It lifts the paralysis. helps you move. :)

I think I can speak for most of us on here when I say that we all know that feeling of being paralyzed with fear. I've been going through the same emotions. I am in the middle of a move that somehow has to work for me for the time being. Not at all what I want to do, but what I have to do for now. I know well that feeling of being paralyzed with fear. Sometimes it gets so bad that I just stand there and look around me and don't know what to do next. I absolutely freeze up.The important thing is to just do SOMETHING. ANY little thing to keep you moving forward. If you let that fear overtake you, it has won. You can do this!! Just keep moving, no matter how little you accomplish at one given time.

hugs, hugs and more hugs!

In the past you have laid out some sequences of events that might lead to problems. Perhaps go back to those sequences and then make plans for how to react depending on what happens.

Continuing hugs

(((((HUGS)))))

I'M sorry, I know what you mean! Everybody has already said more than I can by myself! Never give up! Ted

Sweetie,

I know there's not much I can say to help you not have the feelings you do of the fear of what's going to happen in the future regarding everything ( I know some people here don't know as much as I might , but I don't need to write it out ). I am going to tell you what I've always told you. You are so strong.. you ARE. I know you don't feel like that now. I get it. I do.. but you are. You've overcome so many things since I've known you and you will continue to. Remember not long ago when you were afraid about your classes? You did great. I know you will continue to do whatever you have to do to keep on keeping on.. I have so much faith in you. You've proven over and over again that you can overcome the adversity you face. You're a fighter. I know that there are things out of our control, but you are going to get through this scary time.. I know you are.. cause you are Ms. Awesomesauce . Love you.

Others have given you great advice hun. All I can say is I have been through this many times myself, fearing the future. Sad to say I have not found an answer. Just know that you are not alone

Sometimes to win we have to Surrender. I have struggles with that myself.

In my yoga class there was a saying on the wall "Don't dwell on the past, don't dream about the future concentrate the mind on the present moment."
I remind myself of this all the time.

Thank you dear friends for your comments and hugs. It helped me ride the storm out. I had a better day today and accomplished some of the things done that were overwhelming me.