Please don't kill yourself. You are a valuable person, regardless of what people say. I've struggled with feelings of depression since I was 12 so I get it. It's hard. But please keep fighting it. You are not what they say you are. You have so much potential.
Have you sought therapy or taken medication? These are some difficult situations you're dealing with.
If you are seriously considering killing yourself please call 911 or text 741741. Prayed for you tonight. This may be hard to believe, but I care about you because you are a fellow person and you hold value.

"You not finding me attractive will not stop me from being attractive " one of my favorite saying and it's very true. Looks fade and change as you get older so don't worry to much about that. Plus being werid isn't all that bad yes it is hard being weird when you are younger but as you get older people tend to enjoy weird. It's hard finding a job is always hard finding a job you like even harder. Keep trying. Remember love doesn't have an age limit you may be in your 30 when you find it so don't kill yourself you don't want to miss out on love. Stay strong hun

You have fallen into the common trap of trying to please others before pleasing yourself, if indeed you please yourself at all. Change your focus and you may well find you change your life along with it.

I've been where you are, I was all about others and when it came time for them to be about me, it was no way jose. It took me a long time to learn my lesson, but I learned it well, I became all about me, not in a selfish way, but in a self-caring way and, in doing so I became self-loving, self-happy and, I became lovable to my select amount now of friends too.

What I do nowadays with my select few friends is wait for them to come to me if in need, I never go and attempt to invade their world's unnecessarily like I previously thought I had to.

If you don't like/love yourself the message you sell to others about yourself is that you are unlikable and, unlovable which inadvertently/unintentionally you are guilty of doing agreed?

thank you a lot people like you give me hope that there are actual humans who have a conscience instead of following what everyone else does I appreciate the support

Please 'DON'T GIVE UP!' Medication and counseling by a mental-health professional is good; couple with exercise that releases chemicals that can lift your mood, increase your energy, and improve your sleep. Record your thoughts and feelings in a journal. Also please don’t overlook your spiritual needs: Pour out your heart to God in prayer…it can help calm you.

The best thing I can think of to say is you have a LOT of life ahead of you. Things can and often do change FAST. Whatever you experience or have experienced is but a teacup of events compared to all that awaits you. Don't give up, Mr. Jay. NEVER give up. Life is LOADED with surprises ... some good, some bad. Don't cheat yourself out of having a full life. Don't do it.