You are surely not alone. I feel like I can do nothing right at times. I have been divorced twice and my youngest daughters father molested her last year. I have good days and bad. I have some of the same feelings as you. Just remember, it will pass...it might now be right this minute or even today, but it will pass and you will get through this. Lots of love and best wishes to you.

I know it feels like shit now. I know. There is no softening the disappointment of how our lives didnt turn out like we thought we would. This is when it would be nice if some kind of God got involved. What kind of God let's us lay around and hate ourselves.
Where is the Universal of compassion for people like us who get dark and just need a reason to go on. Just a little verification that we are worth living. The sad and good news is that this is not your fault. It's our world and our chemicals. There is sometimes nothing we can do but NOT kill ourselves.

Can you imagine the last few seconds of your life as your blood drains away thinking about all the people who can't tell you now but that do love you. CAn you imagine the regret you may feel once you have done it and you wake up in some deminsion where our darkness goes on and even worse we have regret for taking our lives because what goes up must come down and vice versa. There will be a day again when you will smile. There is always music. it reminds us of our souls. This body you carry around is not yours forever...you are trapped in it, but i believe in miracles and I think they are for all of us. God bless you and I'm sorry your so sad. your not alone. ever.

wow that is so sad. the very exact same thing is happening to me too. it seems no one really cares and as you id very much wish i do not want to wake up tomorrow. no reason to. omg ive thought the very same thing word for word. i wish i had a better answer. this makes 2 of us for what its worth.

thankyou for your replies. really struggling at the moment. can not get these thoughts of ending it all out of my head.. can not see a way back up right now.. its all my fault, everything has built up over the years. all i seem to do is hurt the ones i love. im a mess and i always seem to end up hurting them.
i had a perfect lil family and i messed that up. my family was always close i destroyed that.. all i do is cause hurt and pain. i dont want to deeal with this anymore

Every breath is a new chance... one step at a time. Call someone that you know can help or just talk. My father just talked to me for a long time. He doesn't really understand depression but he tries to inspire me all the time. Usually its too much and I can't take his advice as much as I could today. He said that my life just seems too overwhelming. so true! I feel like everywhere I look theres a problem every where I look. He said take one problem at a time and chip away at it until its gone. One problem at a time. If you are having a problem with someone in your life or need their support, have the first step be a phone call or write them a letter. Start chipping away! Good luck and message me if you need to talk!

to know you are hurting means you are seeing it from where? from what part of your being are you seeing that your are hurting?

and also... you didnt plan on this pain, so you didnt make it happen on purpose. life appears through us.. its not something we make happen. try closing your eyes and thinking up your next though, or the one after that.. its impossible..

you are pure and clear... so sit.. and clear yourself.. open and free...

Hugs, you are not alone dear, remember we are all here for you, you aren't alone, please hang in there!
Anjel

I am so sorry that you are having such a difficult time right now...Believe me I know just how you feel because I often times feel the same exact way. I truly understand how you feel....I just want you to know you are not alone....many people have these same feelings. I know it is very hard for you right now but things will get better and this too shall pass. So just hang in there and remember there are alot of people here for you in this support group that can understand and would like to help you in any they possibly can, that includes me. I would love to help you in any way I can. If you need to talk to an understanding and supportive friend please message me. I am here for you.

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