Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
BAH!!! HUMBUG!!!!
For the first time in my life, I just ain't into Christmas...It used to be one of my favorite times of year...last year, I had to force myself to go through the motions...and I did ...last year at this time, Dec.21 I was fighting an asthma attack...this year, on Christmas Eve of all days, I spent the day at the dr's office, getting a breathing treatment, and a shot in my butt!!!...my butt!!! I haven't had a shot in my butt since I was a kid!!! a little kid!!!...it HURTS!...then after that I went to the pharmacy to pick up Rx's ...for a person who dislikes taking meds, i am taking so many meds it isn't even funny...I have to take steroids...3 pills once a day for five days!!! UGH...
Another thing...I was thinking while I was in the dr's office...I don't care whether I live or die...I don't want to hurt myself or commit suicide...but...I think subconsciously I am harming myself to the point of death...looking at the report from doctor, and knowing how my mind works...I am punishing myself by being sick...and remaining sick...I literally couldn't breath for the past 2 days and that is the only reason, I went to the Dr today...I hate not being able to breath...but my blood pressure was extremely high...malignant hypertension high...180/113 P103...Finally...I missed the Christmas Eve service at church...first time in 10 years!!!...I just don't have the desire to go...I am just not into anything...and it turns out I aint the only one...but it sure feels like I am...anyway...that's all for now...took some sleeping meds...and now I am going to try to get through the next 36 hours...so this whole holiday thing can just be over.
For the first time in my life, I just ain't into Christmas...It used to be one of my favorite times of year...last year, I had to force myself to go through the motions...and I did ...last year at this time, Dec.21 I was fighting an asthma attack...this year, on Christmas Eve of all days, I spent the day at the dr's office, getting a breathing treatment, and a shot in my butt!!!...my butt!!! I haven't had a shot in my butt since I was a kid!!! a little kid!!!...it HURTS!...then after that I went to the pharmacy to pick up Rx's ...for a person who dislikes taking meds, i am taking so many meds it isn't even funny...I have to take steroids...3 pills once a day for five days!!! UGH...
Another thing...I was thinking while I was in the dr's office...I don't care whether I live or die...I don't want to hurt myself or commit suicide...but...I think subconsciously I am harming myself to the point of death...looking at the report from doctor, and knowing how my mind works...I am punishing myself by being sick...and remaining sick...I literally couldn't breath for the past 2 days and that is the only reason, I went to the Dr today...I hate not being able to breath...but my blood pressure was extremely high...malignant hypertension high...180/113 P103...Finally...I missed the Christmas Eve service at church...first time in 10 years!!!...I just don't have the desire to go...I am just not into anything...and it turns out I aint the only one...but it sure feels like I am...anyway...that's all for now...took some sleeping meds...and now I am going to try to get through the next 36 hours...so this whole holiday thing can just be over.
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I got an email from Kohl's that I had a 40% off coupon for today and tomorrow only. It took me about an hour but I placed an order and got some great deals. I have been wanting a new dress. I like dressing up sometimes. My birthday is coming up and I have dinner plans at a nice restaurant. But, honestly, I'm a little out of control again. I went through this in the fall. I bought...
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Has anyone else noticed that clearly speaking and doing things intentionally is liberating because it helps combat the feeling of depression and a sense of hopelessness? Let me share a little more: in my experience, when those who have tried to project a hidden agenda that is obviously not aligned with integrity and well-being, it's best to be firm and speak clearly from self-awareness and...
I hope that you start to feel better and that the holiday season passes by quickly for you. Hugs Kelley