Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
i have felt suicidal may times. sometimes on a daily basis. when i really think aout it, what would suicide achieve? it would put an end to the pain. there are times when its so bad i will do ANYTHING for it to stop. od on medication is my favourite one so far because i go to sleep and i dont have to know im alive for a few hours. because of my christian beliefs i dont believe killing myself would give me the healing i need. yes, my life can often suck beyond the telling of it but, hell would be worse. at least here i am not with God nor without friends.
so i made a decision the other day about what i really want. i dont want to be dead. i want the pain to stop. so that means what i really want is to be HAPPY and FREE. happy and free, happy and free. im going to try and replace the thought of 'i wish i was dead' to 'i wish i was happy and free'. i think maybe i can take some baby steps towards that. any little chance to be happy and make my own decisions i will take. i dont know how to do that yet as very little makes me happy. but there was one thing. ive been happy for 10mins in the last year. doing what you may ask. talking to a bird. he had a lot to say for himself and was very affectionate!
so i made a decision the other day about what i really want. i dont want to be dead. i want the pain to stop. so that means what i really want is to be HAPPY and FREE. happy and free, happy and free. im going to try and replace the thought of 'i wish i was dead' to 'i wish i was happy and free'. i think maybe i can take some baby steps towards that. any little chance to be happy and make my own decisions i will take. i dont know how to do that yet as very little makes me happy. but there was one thing. ive been happy for 10mins in the last year. doing what you may ask. talking to a bird. he had a lot to say for himself and was very affectionate!
There is a light at the end of the road, we just have to find it.
...What can I do today that will make me feel happier than I felt yesterday..?
You're right! Suicide is not the answer. There is always one more reason to try again. Of course, those reasons become clearer if you go looking for them.
Take care hon.