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Can't handle this much longer

Faisal__Kamal
Faisal__Kamal

I'm tired by dealing with mental illness that I have, and makes my parents get angry and furious because of it. I just wish that they're supporting me:( I'm done with struggling.... I'm sorry that I'm spamming with this, but since the therapist's fee (that I think might be) expensive, I cannot afford it and blocking me to seeking help, especially when my parents says that I need to see therapist but with furious and yelling expression, and makes me more anxious....



I just think that might be better off dead and hopefully not awake in the morning or after I got awake from sleep or nap! I'm tired of the people who judging and don't want to support with this illness, just because they're not experience it!!!!!! :(

unabletocope
unabletocope
I hear the frustration you're experiencing. I don't know what you are going through but I understand the pain and anguish that you must be feeling. I have experienced it and I had to go to a couple of different therapists before finding the right one. Not everyone you talk to will provide great advice and, as a result, what they say (even though it may come from a good place) will cause more pain and make you feel more injured.

It's okay to feel sadness and/or emotional pain. And, there is nothing unusual about the idea that you might be better off dead. Those thoughts are more common than you think. Nobody will admit it or acknowledge it. But the first step toward my improvement was to recognize that what I was going through was natural for me and I kept moving forward until I found what worked for me (not others, me). My advice for you is to block out any negative thoughts and/or sentiments from outside people and follow what your instinct is leading you to. Listen to your internal thoughts and direction. You know how you feel, no one else does. The answer is out there but you have to continue to look for it. The path is going to be tough, there will be obstacles along the way and you will have to fight but you have to look at it from the viewpoint of fighting for your own health, life, and wellbeing. Do it for yourself.

You are not alone. You can do it.
Faisal__Kamal
Faisal__Kamal
Since I don't have enough money, I decided to keep called Suicide Prevention Online, everytime until I found the right one for the listener. Because I'm tired and dying! @unabletocope
happyonislands
happyonislands
Hang in there! I cannot imagine what you’re going through, but I know there is hope and peace for you. I understand that you cannot afford to visit your therapist; however, maybe there are other free or low cost resources for you in the community. Also, have you reached out to your state government or local churches may have resources and referrals. Another great organization to speak with that provides licensed counselors is Focus on the Family. You can contact them at 1-800-232-6459.
You are a wonderful person. This is only a season in time. I believe good things are going to happen for you soon.
Good luck! I wish you all the best.