I have a lot on my mind. Kind of a while ago, I had posted about an issue I was having with a former male friend of mine. He has been wanting to date me and I tolerated a lot of bad things that he has done to me. After several threats and what happened the last time we hung out, I got a restraining order because he is pretty unstable. He tried to confront me when I was leaving work so I called the police. I heard that the guy that I called the police on for violating the restraining order is very angry with me. He claims that he was trying to make peace with me and how dare I call the police on him. Now I am concerned that he will try something. I know deep down that this will not end until he does try something. It is a bad way to look at it but at some point it has to hit that point. Hes very angry and mad at me so I am sure he is thinking of what to do. I am probably letting my mind run too far with this. I know what he could do and I am scared because I had been raped before more than once and I cannot go through that again.This is causing me so much stress that I do not need. I am trying to work through a lot of past issues and this is not helping. I have only been sober from cocaine since March 19th. Prior to that, I was just over a year sober. However things fell apart that night and of course that was the last time I hung out with that guy. What happened that night pushed me to cut off contact with him. I am just looking for support since I am alone a lot since my boyfriend is deployed. Thanks for listening to me vent. So if something doesn't make sense, my mind jumps a lot.