I am sorry for your losses ! I to have lost well all of my family. Your right its not ok and you are hurting from it extreamly bad. Try to remember the good times and keep them alive in your heart and mind. That is the best you can do . :(

Big hugs
If you want to talk sometime I am usually here during the week.

today would have been my dad's 71st birthday. We lost him 4 1/2 years ago right after Christmas. He is the second person I lost in their 60s. It isn't fair. My dad doesn't get to see his grandkids grow up. He doesn't get to see them go to prom and graduate. My MIL died the year before at age 78 after battling cancer for 21 years. She put up a good fight. My dad didn't. He was diagnosed in July with cirrohosis of the liver and was gone less than 6 months later.

All we can do is continue living for those left behind. We have a purpose here and need to fulfill it, even if we don't know what that purpose is yet.

MY DAD PASSED AWAY OCT 27, 1995.
MY FATHER-IN-LAW PASSED AWAY ON OCTOBER 27, 2013.
I STILL MISS THEM.
MY DEAR 88 YEAR OLD MOM IS IN A NURSING HOME WITH ADVANCED ALZHEIMERS.
EVERY TIME SHE ANSWERS THE PHONE IS A DELIGHT 2 ME............
WE PRAY 4 EACH OTHER EVERYDAY.......................
GBU
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PS. SHE THINKS SHE IS VACATIONING AT A MOTEL ON HER WAY BACK HOME.

Diane know that I am thinking of you. You are facing things that are major challenges and then you have depression on top of it all. That's a lot to handle. I hope you find some comfort. Good for you for reaching out.

hang in there Diane. Even these sadnesses subside over time.

I understand my parents died when they were 47 and 46. I was in my teens, And my sister lost her son when he was 23. Recovery of any amount is slow. I am sorry for your heart ache. Just off topic you look like my mom and she was from PA. I think of her when I see you. Its pleasant.

I wish I could take your burden for you, if only for an hour or so. I watched my mother pass away last year. Slowly she stopped being the mom that I knew, and became somebody else in her body. Her mind and body went sort of at the same pace. For the last few months her conversation was basically her recalling phrases that she used when her mind was sharp. Sometimes they fit the occasion, other times they did not.

I still have my dad, but I see him slipping now too.

You have friends here who have walked a path similar to yours; please reach out to any and all of us. None of us knows "exactly how you feel" because, well, because we don't.

But we understand the stress.

Look to other things to occupy some of your time.

Continuing hugs

I understand how you feel. In the past 15 years, I have lost 4 half-sisters, 2 half-brothers, a brother-in-law, my mother and my 37 year old son.

It is never easy to give our loved ones up. It always leaves a void in our lives and, it sometimes seems overwhelming at times.

As some have said, we do not know why some die young but, we know that all mankind dies at some time in life. I made the mistake of not giving myself time to grieve the death of my mother or my son. I threw myself into my job to try and deal with the loss. This helped get my mind off of it at the present but, at times when I was not at work, the sadness would return. Give yourself time to grieve. Grieving is a time of healing. Without this healing, the wound still hurts. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Continuing hugs

How about a new kitten?

The 2 cats I have HATE each other and appear to hate other cats and dogs as well. They live in separate parts of the house. I have no where to put another cat. And I do not think I would be able to give another pet the amount of attention it would deserve right now anyway.... I turned down 2 new birds recently because of that as well...

I so understand your pain sweety, and I hope you know I am here for you whenever you need to talk. I try to be on DS each day. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers... Many hugs. GB

Cats can be like that. I'm sorry that they do not get along.

More hugs

I can understand how you are feeling scared and upset with all of the loss that you have experienced. I know that for me something that really helps, is being able to get out of the house and make use of potential support systems. I'm not necessarily saying that you go out and cry to all of your friends (although that could be helpful also) but just being around people can be therapeutic for people who suffer from depression such as ourselves. If you don't have a support group it is important to create one. This can be done by joining a team or club or even by volunteering (which will have other positive effects). I am truly sorry for your loss and am always available to talk if you'd like. Hang in there!