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My legs are covered in bruises. I have been so miserable, anxious and weak recently that I have been punching myself to bring release. I've had a dead leg for 3 days since my last attack on myself. I have not self harmed in anyway for 4 months, then the punching starts again.
I'm so annoyed with my weak and pathetic nature but I dont know what to do. I have come to the conclusion that I do not want to take my life anymore but I do seem intent on punishing myself constantly. Leaving here was just one of those punishing actions. I dont what I feel I've done but I seem to believe that I am deserving.
I'm so annoyed with my weak and pathetic nature but I dont know what to do. I have come to the conclusion that I do not want to take my life anymore but I do seem intent on punishing myself constantly. Leaving here was just one of those punishing actions. I dont what I feel I've done but I seem to believe that I am deserving.
on the other hand...i am happy to see that you are
back...
be well friend!
i sat on my bathroom sink yesterday (to pluck my eyebrows--yuck, girl vanity BULLSHIT) and ended up cutting my thighs with the tweezers, instead.
screw it all....i don't even know what to say.
just want you to know i hear ya....
peace to you, lovely.
gentle hugs
For me it's rage at others turned inward on myself because I was never allowed to express it at the ones I really wanted to. I still can't..it wouldn't be feasible at this point...but I've been working on letting it go, one tiny little bit at a time. Not easy, as I said, I still have urges.
I can only tell you that you...and I... are not deserving of this kind of pain.
you have just lost the therapy that was helping you.
You left here because it was another way to punish yourself.
Has anyone been able to get to the root of this problem?
You weren't born to be perfect, something has made you like this.
If you can find that key to unlock the need to punish yourself, you can find the strength to free yourself of this.
I know you have the courage of a Lion and a wife who will always support and love you.
Literally, stop beating yourself up. You are so worth your own love and acceptance.
Try to find it Baz
Niki
I like to think I punish mysef because it gives me the drive to better nyself. That's the theory, doesnt work that way in practice.
I do get angry at other people until I realise there is no point.
Nothing is bringing me any joy and Im starting to think Im empty again
I just started working out with a speedbag and everyone of my knuckles is swollen and purple today. It felt great to beat the shit out of that bag. It'd been so long since i'd had a natural healthy adrenaline rush.
Please take care of yourself. You do not deserve extra pain. You're a good guy, Baz.