Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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AngstyPanda 01/31/2017

I’m sorry. I just have nowhere else to go. I just feel so alone right now. I feel like I ruin the lives of everyone I come in contact with. The thing is, I have a fair few medical problems, and I’m in my 20’s. I’ve had migraines since I was 3, and I’ve also had struggles with anxiety, depression, and ADHD, and endometriosis. I’m on my parents’ health insurance, but my mom says she’s frustrated because I’m a very expensive child because of all my medical problems. I don’t know what to do. I feel so anxious about the future, and I really don’t want to keep progressing forward because I just feel like I can’t do anything and there’s no hope for me. My endometriosis is really hurting me right now, and I just don’t know what to do, because I can’t go to the doctor because it’s too expensive, but it also hurts to stand up. I just don’t want to be here anymore. I feel like nobody deserves to deal with someone like me. I just wish I had never been born so that my family didn’t have to deal with all this. I can’t do this anymore. I don’t want to have to be such a deadweight to everyone. I just want the pain to stop, and for my future to stop, and I’ve arrived at a point where I don’t care what stops it anymore. I just want it all to stop, because I can’t keep doing this to everyone.

I just want my feelings out there so I don't feel like they're suffocating me. I just don't have anyone. My family can't stand it anymore, and none of my friends talk to me anymore because I'm so annoying. I didn't know where else to go.

cindy59 02/01/2017

HI I am sorry to hear that you are having medical issues, my daughter is now 40 years old and
had dealt with this medical issue, it is just terrible, my heart goes out to you. But I can tell you
my daughter has made it from 20 years old to now she is 40 years old. I know that the cost is
expensive as I saw her pay out a ton. You did not ask for a medical condition, it is not your fault.
You are not annoying, you are hurting. My advise would be to see a doctor anyway. If that is not
possible maybe a free clinic.

dinahmorris 02/01/2017

I agree with Cindy. You didnt ask for this-I am sorry you feel this way. You need some support and DS is a good place to find it. As they say in AA-Keep Coming Back-It Works if You Do. Take advice and start there-with the hunt for a free clinic...maybe a women's health centre. I dont know where you live but Google is agood place to start. Things will improve! xox

LillyGabriel 02/01/2017

My neighbor has migraines. She's had them for over 50 years, since she was a kid too. They disabled her. She can't even work. She gets really sick and they last for days. She always has a headache. You can't help it if you're sick. Just because your mom said that doesn't mean she doesn't care, does it? I hope not. People say things all the time without considering how the other person will take it. I hope it's not as bad as you feel like it is. Being sick all the time is awful. It's dreadful, but it's not your fault. You do need to take care of yourself though so you don't get even sicker. It gets lonely when you face things like you're going through. I'm sick too and my illness keeps me isolated. I'll say a prayer for you.

catskyn 02/01/2017

Hello, well first thing first, regardless of what you mother say's you've got to go to the doctor. Do your medications for A.D.H.D work? I am a mother of 4 children and 2 grandchildren. I love my children with all my heart even though they can really get on my nerves at times. I would want my child to go to the doctor if he or she felt the way you are feeling. Were you and your mother arguing when she said this? We as parents can say thing's we don't mean when we feel pushed to our limits, its pretty normal we are people too. But there are cases where parents just don't care and they are not normal and shouldn't be parents at all. Do you feel this is how your parents are??

rainbowlegacym55 02/01/2017

I am sorry you are suffering and I am someone who had the Endometriosis . I tolerated the pain until I was in my forties and had a complete hysterectomy. You don't have to suffer as much if you get help now . I am sending you some support as you are a wonderful amazing creation and you deserve to heal. Depression blocks our ability to see clearly. You are loved by your family I am sure . Know this . you matter to me and all those on this board. keep sharing

WanderingVet 02/01/2017

It is going to take the medical profession to resolve these problems. Sure .. expense is an issue, but that is the truth.

I guess OBAMACARE is not what it is cracked up to be. I don't see things improving without quite a bit of 'doctoring'.

soulsearcher83 02/02/2017

Tell mom you're going to the doctor. If she chooses to kick you off of her insurance, you will get your own through the state. Tell her you didn't ask for this and it was her genetic pool that gave it to you so if she's looking to blame someone, blame her own biology. I bet that will make her step back and rethink what she said. Eiither way, get help now. Apply for state medical insurance and start the application for disability. After you get it, you can work part time if you are up to it. by then. Either way, you need help now. How dare a mother make her daughter suffer to save money? Call yourself an ambulance if you have to. They help you get the applications for assistance started in the ER as well.

AngstyPanda 02/02/2017

Catskyn-I'm not on anything for ADHD at the moment. I was from 14 to 16, but then we decided it would be best if I quit taking them because I was on a lot of medication. I've considered asking about the possibility of getting back on because my first year of college was a train wreck, but right now, things have made it to so my anxiety and endometriosis have had to be my top priority, so I'm just going to kind of play it by ear.

I made an appointment with an OB/GYN to discuss the endometriosis. I told my mom about it, but said I could cancel it if need be. She seems supportive of it. So, for now, I'm just going to work with that and deal with everything else the best I can, and try to come up with a new plan.

Thank you so much everyone. I've really been struggling lately because I feel like I'm falling apart and I can't keep up with it. I appreciate all of your encouragement. I've been needing that.

whatswrong19 02/02/2017

I had the alot of these sorts of issues too, I was not treated properly for alot of things medically, I needed my tonsils removed, NOPE, couldn't take the time off from work, and couldn't afford it, I had endometriosis, NOPE can't do anything for that either, I fell off of rollerblades and went body slamming and sailing across conrete and gravel, tore a hole in my upper lip and tore my nostril off my lip, NOPE they had church and couldn't afford anymore doctor bills. I get it, so now I work for child protective services, but honestly I don't feel like we do anything much to help families, cause we have piss poor management, with nothing better to do than sit on a pedestal pretending to be so much better than everyone else.

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