I'm broken heart from the guy I had a extremly high expectaion that would be the one for me. We had so much things in comment and I like everything about him, he just like my dream guy that I've been waiting all my life. We dated just a month and had intimacy too early and we both knew we struggled to get to know each other outside the bedroom but talked about it that we could not change and decided to go forward.

For the last 5 days his lack of communication to me hurt really bad. I had the gut feeling something was up and decided to send him email telling him I deserve better than just a sudden cold feet. He gave me reasons that we move forward too fast and I gave him an apartment keys made him uncomfortable and feel like been forced. The reason I did that because part of my job to come home late on the weekend and I didn't want him to wait outside since he drove very far away to see me. Another reason to him was I got out of my last abusive long relationship just 6 months and he still felt my pain. He thought I wasn't ready yet. I found this as excuses to break up with me because I suspected him started dating another women since last week. I need help to get over this high expectation and shock from this relationship. I have had the most pain in my break up from the last 13 years. I didn't see it coming and in denie and had been put him in the center of universe and dreamt about it everyday sincethe last month. I felt like I got hit by a truck and swallow a poising stuff in my mouth! It 's so embarassing I usually don't talk about my problem to people but this time I talk to so many friends to get it out. I also try to write down the things I am thankful for to calm myself down but it is still fresh pain, so very hard.