Hi everyone,

So today, I was feeling very depressed (well, I have been for a while now) and I went to work. I didn't want to come in because I knew I was going to cry and have a breakdown, especially because I was also having fibromyalgia pain, making it hard for me to work. Sure enough, I ended up breaking down two minutes into my shift.

I tried calling my therapist and my psychiatrist but no luck. I sat upstairs in the breakroom at work, crying and sobbing my eyes out. My assistant manager is running the store until my manager comes back from vacation, but he has a beef with me. He likes my sister better (she works at my work during the night) and she tells me things that I don't want to hear. So he comes to me in the breakroom and I really want to go home, but he says for me to hurry up and get downstairs to work. I tried to dry my tears and went downstairs but I still couldn't control myself.

I cried at work for an hour when I went up to my newest supervisor and plead with her to call my assistant manager to let me go home. She did and he let me go. Finally!

I really wanted to work today, but I just couldn't function. I hate being depressed, trust me. I want to get better so badly, and I'm on meds and will be visiting my psychiatrist on Friday. The fibromyalgia I try to control but it's very difficult. I'm just looking for some strength and support. This is all NOT in my head!