I know what you mean..

Do you have a park that is nearby where you can have a nice picnic. I take picnics by myself all the time, just to get away. I bring a blanket and a book and just nap in the sun. What makes you happy or brings a smile to your face?

What DO you have? A friend or relative you can go stay with for a while?? Enough money to go camping? do yu have time to go anywhere? Just a pleasant new change in your daily routine can make a big difference?
What do you like to do?

Right now finances are tight. I tried to go to my parents for the night, didn't work and I ended up having to come home after 3 hours. I'm having a hard time these days even getting out of bed but I do know I need to figure out something and push myself. I used to enjoy things but now everything just makes me cry. Right now it's 2am and I'm awake and I don't feel safe to go out anywhere at the moment because of the time. I hope I can bring myself to get out for a bit tomorrow. None of my friends live close by. Concentration sucks. Sorry don't mean to be sounding like I'm complaining.

I think i might call an old support worker from one the drop in centers i used to go to. Well in the morning anyway when they are open for the day. I hope she is free. Sad when that's the only person I can think of right now.

I think i just need to stop feeling so isolated and alone. Like I'm not a horrible person for feeling this way. My parents just sort of emphasized for me how horrible I am.

I don't think you're just complaining - you've got to state the problem before you can think of ways to fix it!!
Is there anything you can do to brighten up or change the place yu live in?

Actually I like my place that I live. I just moved in the end of Feb and the girl I live with is cool too. But I don't know her well enough to feel comfortable talking to her about this so I'm mainly hidden in my room. I force myself out once in awhile because I know it's for the best. This place is a million times better then the last place I lived. I'm still trying to figure out what to do with the rest of the stuff I have here, I have a couple piles of stuff that needs to be put away but nowhere to put it. Maybe that can occupy my mind tell I fall asleep...or maybe it'll frustrate me more. I am so scared of getting myself more frustrated.

Don't you feel better just being understood by others here? Connecting with others at Daily strength helps me release worries without being judged for being crazy, just reassurance that I am human.

How about going to a local bookstore? One that also has a coffeshop. You can sit, read, and drink coffee, and just watch people. It can be very relaxing.

It does help a little being here. It's hard though too for me in a way.

I might go out for a bit this afternoon after I have a shower. Gosh...I look like I've been camping or something...stupid lack of energy.

I always take time to meditate, that lets me de-stress and gives me a break from myself
hope that helps!!!!