I wish you could too Hun. The Black Pit Of Dispair. Is that from The Princess Bride?

Another friend recommended thinking about your favorite movies and then watching one or two. Helps me a lot when I need to crawl out of the hole

Blue hun don't worry about the "what if's,"

I have been their! You have to become proactive to get better! It takes time! Post here often and if you can, get a counselor and a psych. If not, tell your Dr. What is going on. Find an anti-depressants that helps! I know how much hell it is! Get help through it!

the fact your talking about the idea being present of suicide is a bad sign...it is suggested to get therapy...what do you do in regards to having therapy?
there are supports in place to help you talk to others regarding this thought process too...click help and click the hotline link on top...

it is crisis resources....hugs bill on the help tap top right...

I am very sorry you are going through this. Maybe you could do something nice for yourself to uplift your spirits. Concentrate on doing good things for yourself. Hugs and love. I hope things will get better very soon for you but in the meantime do good things for yourself and be kind to yourself.

You don't have to see your future. That's a giant tactical error.

All you have to manage is your next step. So focus on your next step, and get that right. While you allow yourself to be distracted with fears and dangers and 'will I ever be happy' you don't give proper attention to what's in front of you and you mess up.

today is all you've got. What will you do with today?

Wow, sorry you're having such a hard time. Have you had any luck with being able to keep your mom's house? I know that last time you checked in you were going to get some legal counsel.

Everyone gave great advice. All I can add is that the lower you sink into that black pit, the harder it is to climb out. Get help NOW. Please try to keep posting so that we know you are ok. I'm sending prayers and good wishes your way.

Find some specifics to post. Start with one. You will see that you can cope when you put your mind to it,

Blue, I've come to accept that the black pit is part of me, it's my soul, but it doesn't have to be a black pit of DESPAIR. There's room to wriggle around in the black pit and create something.

It could be a new artistic hobby that brings beauty into the world, like photography, drawimg, painting. It could be exercise like bicycling, swimming, working out, golf, tennis, or just taking long walks, any number of things. It could be forming and nurturing new friendships. It could be job-hunting online, searching for that dream career.

Main thing is DO SOMETHING, ANYTHING. Don't let fear immobilize you. Fear can be a GOOD thing, when it lights a fire under your ass to get something done within a certain specified time. Under that fear can be an anger and a relentless drive.

SORRY U R HAVING SUCH A ROUGH TIME OF IT......................
LOTS OF HUGS HUN'.......................
GBU
DRENA B
;-O

I do have a psychiatrist and a therapist I see weekly. I am on a lot of medication, but nothing really helps.

Heidi, the lawyer never returned my call and my social phobia has prevented me from calling anyone has yet. The whole house issue is my main fear and the main cause of my problems right now.

What's your situation with your job or who you live with, marital status?
Is that what is causing your despair.
I wanted to die after my divorce.
Koolman has a point....do something to get rid of fear. I have been scared too and not did enough to improve. But I don't know if that's situation.
Is there anything you want to add, and we could help?

Sweetie.

I just saw this and you know what I'm going through with worrying about my great niece so I'm so sorry I didn't see this earlier.

You know how much I believe in you.. I am so sorry you are struggling the way you are. I would give anything to make things better for you.

Please please never give up hope. I believe there is a light at the end of the dark tunnel. I truly do. Please hold on to that belief.
I love you.

LMT