Not that it or rather I matter or anyone would care.

Why do you want to die? And what makes you think that no one would care? Do you not have family or some friends?

Alot of people on this site have wanted to die, so that they wouldn't have to wake up and still be sick and in pain, mental pain.

Death is not considered a treatment for depression. Think about this. What one single thing can you change today? Just one! If you are doing something unhealthy, you could stop doing that for one day. There must be one thing you would like to change about yourself, maybe hundreds of things. But just pick one thing that by changing it you would feel better, and do it.

You are very young, your whole life is still in front of you. Give yourself a chance. By the way. Even though I don't know you, I would care. Do something positive for yourself, take a hot bath, go for a walk and breath fresh air. If you get worse call a crisis hotline, or come back here and write some more. OK?

Talk to me. I feel the same.

I've so been there. I thought everyone would be better off without me. I attempted suicide five times. But I finally figured out that killing myself would seriously harm my family, and I started just telling myself that death is not an option. Every time I felt like killing myself, I said, "Not an option. Not an option. Not an option." After a while I actually took that into myself, and I didn't have to tell myself that anymore. I knew it wasn't an option.

And what was really cool was that after a while--and it was a while--I started to feel better. I started to see good things in life again. I started to enjoy little things again. And I realized that those horrible, black hole times really do pass, if you just hang on.

So hang on. Tell yourself anything that keeps you hanging on just one more day. You can get through one more day. Suicide is something you can't take back. Death is always there at the end. Staying alive one more day is the only way you can make anything change. Just live today, and leave tomorrow to tomorrow. And then tomorrow, live one more day. I promise, there are people who would be harmed by your death. And I know you don't want to harm anyone. Find one thing that makes a small difference in how you feel--put on some fuzzy slippers, snuggle with your dog or other pet--or if you don't have one, consider getting one. You can make it through one more day.

I'm thinking of you, and hoping for you, and sending you good vibes.

Take care of yourself today.

I'm in so much emotional pain it takes all I can not to make it physical too. I hate myself I am fat, stupid and worthless.

Ok, now I'm scared I actually have a plan.

"DON'T"

People care, please let us know your ok....

Please call someone and talk. I have felt the same way...fat, ugly, useless, hopeless. But feelings aren't facts. Just because you feel something doesn't make it true. Things can get better for you.

I'm ok, I still want to die but not necessiarily kill myself.

fluterify writes:
**** But I finally figured out that killing myself would seriously harm my family,*****

Congratulaltions! At least you have a family whom you know cares for you. I wish I could say the same. I am 100% sure that mine will be happy. I did too much damage to them., and now I really hate myself, I feel like I want to throw up when I see myself in the mirror. I am crying day and night and looking myself in the mirror, and now I can see that my son is 100% right.

okay disgustingperson.....you need to get yourself help, okay?? I could tell you your son is wrong a thousand times but it looks like you believe otherwise.

Please, get help.

Fluterify...I've seen you post here quite often in this vein. Why is it exactly that you want to die so much? Is it "just" depression (not to trivialize that in ANY way) or are there other factors in your life that are exacerbating that? Are you in treatment at all? I'm sorry I don't know what your story is completely and would like to understand, okay?

Yes. it is just depression and I am in treatment. However, my meds do not work for the depression and after a session I crach about half the time.

Does your doctor know that the meds are not working? Why do you crash after a session? I'd bring all of this up if I were you...sounds like something isn't being done properly in your treatment, unless it's just that you need to give yourself a chance to adjust to it....I really don't know...

Yes my doctor knows and the only reason we can come up with for me crashing is the subconcious mind not liking or agreeing with what was worked on.