Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Begging for Mercy

Nolakitty
Nolakitty
Hi. I have been suffering from Major Depressive Disorder for nearly all my life. Up until now I have been on SSRIs. For the past week I have been on Parnate and Risperdone.
I cannot get off the couch, I have a hard time getting dressed and leaving the house is nearly impossible. I am gaining weight and feeling ugly.
I have isolated myself from everyone. I no longer interested in doing anything I used to be into.
I prayed for mercy like no one's business and I still feel the same.
I feel like my soul and heart are being ripped apart.
What is the meaning of all this? I am in so much pain I don't know what to do anymore.
Can anyone relate?
looney1
looney1
Sorry to hear this. I feel a bit the same, but try to have faith that it will ease a bit in the future while practising techniques to lessen the effects of the present. Naturally see a health practitioner if things get worse.
mjones0608
mjones0608
I sometimes feel as though I can't leave the house too. I tried Risperdone as well, but it didn't work. I suffered from depression nearly all my life as well and there still hasn't been any relief. I also pray all the time. Sometimes the praying will help a tiny bit for a little while but it doesn't seem to be nearly enough.
BlueYonderDreams
BlueYonderDreams
I can relate. I often wonder the meaning of my suffering as well, but perhaps we suffer so we can better empathize with others and are in the unique position to help others with the same ailments. Believe it or not, depression can be a benefit in that way.

I think you need to take baby steps and set a small goal for yourself each day so you can prove to yourself that you can do things. We just need to kick ourselves in the butt from time to time.
scg15223
scg15223
I'm the same way. It doesn't help that I'm an introver and work from home as well! I HATE leaving the house BUT sometimes we have to do what we have to do. To be honest I usually find I feel better after leaving and coming home as I feel like I overcame some greate foe!

Depression is a nasty SOB as we all well know. Please work with your doc as SSRI's sometimes need to be swapped with other types of meds if they start to lose there affect.

Why do we suffer? It's hard to say as everyone has their own cross to bear in this life. I believe we all have our own Trials of Job right here on Earth in-order to prove ourselves in the next life :)

Please be kind and gentle with yourself right now and don't push too hard. This too shall pass my friend :)
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