It has been a very long time since I posted on this site. I've had ups and downs the past year or so. But I think I need to try to be a part of this community. I often feel useless and worthless, but maybe despite not being my old, ready to rumble-tough-working guy, I still have some value. And that might be in helping others who are also having a hell of a time coping with life.

I actually just got out of the hospital. I tried to kill myself, but obviously that didn't quite go as planned. Which is a good thing. However, a silver lining, I spoke to so many doctors and they are expediting my application to get into a special program. And they may have found a couple clues as to what my progressive disease may end up being. I may never be normal or walk again, but getting answers sounds pretty damn good, especially at this pretty low point in my life.

So, anyway, I'm back. And hopefully I will stick around a bit longer than last time and maybe actually contribute. Who knows, I may even help someone else who could really use it one day.