Hi Matt,

I'm sorry your going through so much.

Are you going through a depressive phase? Or this is more like Clinical depression? You've had it since childhood?

Here is my view, and just my opinion.
If you have suicidal thoughts, tell someone. Don't let your emotions end your life. If you can't talk to family or friends. Talk to a Pro. If it costs a bit of money.... trust me, YOUR WORTH IT!

If your family and friends don't listen or SEEM to care, why?

Depressive personalities don't like to be around other depressives. No one does...
If you showing your sad, depressive and "I'm all Alone and no one lives me" side all the time. It will get old to all your friends and family.

They care about you. Don't doubt that for one minute. If you took your life, it would devastate them forever.

What do YOU do to try to get past or over your own depression?

Do you know there are herbs and foods to help reduce anxiety and depression?

Are you on meds? Are you seeing a Doctor?

There ARE many things you can do to help yourself.

Then tell a family member or several of them at a time. Call them up and say, I need to sit down and talk about something important.
Then go over and tell them them, (I have severe depression. To the point where I'm contemplating suicide.) Trust me.... They'll listen.

Thank you for sharing. Seamus offered very good advice. Sometimes loved ones can be too close. It is like a Surgeon not not wanting to operate on their own child, because the stress might cause them to make a mistake. Your family and friends don't want to make a mistake with you. That creates distance. That is why seeking a trained Therapist or Counselor can be of great help, especially if having suicidal thoughts. No shame in getting helped. As Seamus mentioned, you are worth it. You are in my prayers. I hope this was of any help. Thank you and God Bless.

Hey Matt,

I am sorry to hear this. I am going through a very hard time. I wish I could help

I am sorry you are going through such a struggle in your life. But look at the responses to your post. These are from people who don't even know you. You can see that we all care about you deeply and want to see you get better. We want you here with us because we all know you have purpose here. You mentioned in your post you've reached out to family and friends. Have you considered talking to a pastor or a counselor. Maybe someone like that can provide unbiased help that might prove to be super effective in helping you overcome your depression. Like you said, family and friends, after a while, most of the time want you to help them when you are the one that really needs the help. Talking to a professional would allow you and him or her to focus solely on you which it seems is what you need right now. If you don't know where to turn, PM me so I can pass you a toll free number. Hang in there. There are other options to taking your life.