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Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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IrishGreyhound 07/24/2018

I have worked very hard for years to not be a "woe is me" type of person but a recent string of misfortune really has me beaten down. One thing after another kept slapping me in the face and finally the cherry on top, I sliced my finger to the bone 3 days before my new insurance kicked in. I went to immediate care and got 4 stitches and a x-ray because the bone was visible so they feared I damaged it. We are unsure if my new insurance will "back cover" injury prior to start date. I am in pain and pain was the starting point of my depression 2.5 years ago when I was having undiagnosed medical problems.

I switched from Lexapro to Wellbutrin about a month and a half ago and have had uncontrolable, emotional side effects. (The switch was due to weight gain.) I cannot seem to manage my stress which causes tearful breakdowns and angry rampages. I have heavy guilt and shame for these moments and I cannot seem to control them like I use to. I think its the medication switch but my doctor wants me to keep moving forward with it and thinks I am having a slow adaption period.

I have totally lost my grip on life because of the bad attitude I have developed from this string of misfortune.

I have fallen into a deep pity hole and I cannot get out of it.

I am so tired of needing to try to feel level-headed. I am so tired.

SimpsonsOK 07/24/2018

Welcome aboard this DS lifeboat. Someone once said, if it wasn't for bad luck, I wouldn't have any luck at all. Life does that to us at times. I believe that you will rally from this temporary situation. Sorry you are having a hard time with the med adjustment. I have sometimes had to remind myself that the avalanche will end, that I will get through this. Sometimes we have to act our way to wellness until the day we realize we are no longer pretending. I hear how drained you are with no end in sight, so sending calming and empowering hugs.

SimpsonsOK 07/24/2018

Back to help you know that you are not alone.

solitudeisnear 07/25/2018

theres nothing more depressing than having toswitch medications and to top it off you have the other medical burden to deal with. Sounds very painful. Hope your healing well, and I hope that your insurance may have a little consideration on their part, but what are the chances of a company as big as medical to have an oz of consideration? They might though so I hope in your case they will. I wish I had the right words to help you feel more up beat about things. You are here on DS and so many of us are here to help and offer encouragement. Stay strong as you have been doing and things should start to straighten out. Hugs and good feeling to you.

IrishGreyhound 07/25/2018

Thank you. It often takes the words of strangers to give you perspective. Isn't it funny how the words of those closest to us fall on deaf ears sometimes? But when its coming from someone else, the message is clearer.

Onlythelonely 07/25/2018

Sorry you are having a hard time, and about your finger.
I hope you are able to get it paid for by the insurance.

The bad thing about life sometimes is that it doesn't give us a break. When we begin to see the light at the end of the tunnel, the roof of the tunnel caves in.

I heard this quote recently and it has become my mantra, "Life wouldn't be so hard if we didn't expect it to be so easy." Also I read that most of our unhappiness results from unmet expectations. I know that is true for me.

Have you tried anything else to relieve your anxiety? I have been able to manage mine with doTERRA essential oils, yoga, relaxed breathing, etc.
Saying a prayer that you get through this rough patch soon.

IrishGreyhound 07/25/2018

That's an excellent quote and very relevant. Unmet expectations are a contributing factor without a doubt. In the last two months I have really grabbed onto audio books on my commute to and from work as a great way to decompress. I have a great app and get free audio books from my library straight to my phone. I like how audio books force you to be present.

Side note, positive and funny - the stitches on my knuckle force me to splint my finger straight. it just so happens to be my middle finger. I have been walking around work for 2 days with my middle finger up.

Onlythelonely 07/30/2018

@IrishGreyhound, that's pretty funny about the splint.
Since you like to listen to audio books, I'll suggest some titles that have helped me with my anxiety:
Adrenaline and Stress by Archibald Hart;
Happiness is a Choice by Frank Minirth
Rethink How You Think by Dr. David Stoop.

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