I wish I had a good answer for you. All I can say is that to begin living again you just need to begin living again. Find things to do, then go do them! Volunteer for community stuff. Join a gym and work out. Take walks around your community.

I know, easier said than done.

Oh and yes, WELCOME TO DS!

Gentle hugs

Ecksoh, I attempted suicide twice in high school. They were pretty lame attempts, one with pain killers & once with diet pills. All I did was get sick, & I never told anyone. The only one around was my dad, & he was the reason I attempted both times. That was 30+ years ago, so I don't remember how I felt emotionally afterward. I did spend 3 days in the psych ward early this month & I feel EXACTLY the way you described, except I feel like Im living in a huge tin can.
I truly hope you can get a handle on your depression while you are still young. It stinks battling depression your whole life. Do whatever you have to do to get the help you need and be well.

I've tried 4 times, sleeping pills and a bottle of wine. The worst was laying on the train tracks outside my house. Someone called, police got me and took me to the hospital. That was 10 years ago. I still think of it, have a plan that will work but will not discuss it. Not sure if I need it anymore.

I survived a attempt a couple yrs ago. I was depressed for awhile, and what pushed me over the edge was an argument I had with 2 family members. I was told off, and left to feel less than a zero.
It started in the hospital, to want to be alive again. Then being in a mental facility, it really kicked in. My freedom was taken away.
They directed me to where I went for counseling, and to get on the right medications. Also a support group. There,(and here) I know I'm not alone, and see hope, that I too can get through this life. I try to live in the moment. I have choices. When I don't, then I need to accept that. I also joined a gym. Being busy helping others is when I feel the best. Making plans for the future, and/or goals give me something positive to look forward to. Welcome to DS.

I think the best advice I can give you is to present what you have posted to a mental health professional. Might as well take it to the head of the class.

Sorry just babbled on about my prior life. I felt if god did not want me to die at that point then I had to forge ahead. I'm doing that now and probably for the rest of my life. Went fishing today, had a wonderful experience, then saw this giant boat and thought why am I not on that boat. Every one has a destiny, if you don't get out you don't change anything. I will be on that boat some day.

Yes I took enough pills to drop an elephant and was down for the count when person found me and rushed me to the hospital was in a coma for three days. When I am far down I find myself wishing I had succeeded. I have a suicide kit put up in case I ever get bad enough to try again. It consists of several things to make sure it works. I know that it sounds insane but at times I am insane. Meds are helping me cope more than before. Maybe I will one day get to the point that I will not feel I need to keep that as a backup plan. God Bless You! Hang in there it will get better.

Yes I took an overdose of pills when I was 18. I am now 51 and although I battle thoughts of suicide, Ihave not made another attempt. Living life and being alive are struggles for me too. Most days I feel like Ijust exist and am just trying to get through the day. I can't work and I don't function all that well so keeping busy by getting things done is not happeneing for me. I hope you can find something that gives you joy and gives you a reason to keep going. If you can't keep going for yourself then do it for us. Yes we are very selfish and want you around!

TWICE I TOOK SOME OVER THE COUNTER PILLS THAT WERE IN MY HOUSE WHILE I WAS A TEEN BECAUSE I WAS HAVING BOYFRIEND PROBLEMS.
WHEN HE MARRIED SOMEONE ELSE I PROMISED THE LORD I WOULD NEVER ATTEMPT SUICIDE AGAIN AND I HAVENT.
I THREW THE PILLS UP BY THE WAY.
GBU
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BTW, I HAVE BEEN MARRIED 2 MY HUBBY FOR 37 YEARS AND HAVE NOT ATTEMPTED SUICIDE...................................
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I have tried and failed also a few times including sticking a loaded gun in my mouth and pulling the trigger. It didnt go off. My brother did the same thing 3 years ago Christmas day and it went off! I miss him every day and he left a 7 year old son to live with a discraqce of a mother.

SO think of this when you ALL want to think about suicide and that its a fix for the problems in your life. Look at each and every person your going to KILL when you do it. I say that because when my brotehr took his life he killed everyone around him a little bit. Thier hearts will never be the same. OH I will add that BOTH of my parents died of broken hearts a year later so he really did kill them.

I no longer even give suicide a thought! It should not be a solution to any problem. I will compair notes with anyone as far as trauma in my life compaired to anyone elses and if I can survive it then so can you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am a week person and have thought many times in the past about ending it all and didnt.

Please Please dont think suicide is an option!

I had apparently blocked out a memory ...but I got my hands on sleeping pills at aged 17 ( a million years ago). I was going to swallow them all one day but my mother stopped me and dragged my arse to therapy. The one good thing she did, I guess. Although I admit there have been many nights I have gone to bed hoping I do not wake up the next morning, I would never consider suicide again. I know people who have done it and I see what it can do to the people that loved them. Being alive is hard work, I will admit. But if others can do it, then we can too. hugs!

I attempted at the age of 18. I worked at a pharmacy and got into all kinds of drugs. Within minutes I was" out" and the store called ambulance. I had stomach pumped and my first psychiatrist experience. I was chasing shrinks for most of my life. I tried another time drinking and overdosing. And I used to be able to drink(.38 blood alcohol on DUI). I am now 64 yrs old and have finally found some peace. First I had to quit drinking. AA provided me with the support group that has been a thread all my life. I was in psyche hospitals 3 times and all I came away with was a new hobby- painting ceramics. Ultimately couldn't continue working- couldn't concentrate at all.
The answer for me was finding the right medication. Can't tell you how many drugs I tried. and then working the steps of the program. I substituted being powerless over my own thinking. Which I was. My thots would just go off w/o me. We call it the committee in our head. But the biggest help of all was when I finally surrendered my life to God.I just surrendered.
I never stayed with any one shrink to have anyone tell me the odds of me making it. I couldn't trust them. Both my mother and father were alcoholic and abusive.
I've rattled on too long... but hang in there. Try to find some kind of support group you can relate too but mostly the answer will be found in faith in God.

I completely understand this battle. I think you have to surround yourself with positive people, if you can. I think you should start doing things that you enjoy. I think you should take it slowly. Don't over do it & try to do too much at one time. Maybe start walking. Sometimes, you have to do things that will take your mind off your troubles. For me, I'm a serious cleaner. Because of this OCD type of behavior, I will clean my house when it's not even dirty, just to clear my mind & move around. I hope this suggestion helps! *Hugs*