It's a very scary thing when you feel like you're at the bottom of the pit looking up, not even seeing the sky, but hoping it's still above you. I assure you it is and it's 100% possible for you to find it again. If you have healthcare I would suggest at the very least looking into therapy and if need be, medication as well. You can make it out.

Thank you. I have done therapy and am on medication. I just feel so lonely still...

i understand completely and i am so sorry you are in that dark place. light will come again, i promise. you just need to hang on. hugs.

You said you've "done" therapy, does that mean your still doing it? or perhaps with a different Therapist? Therapy works, when it doesn't its usually for 1 of 2 reasons: 1. the relationship between the patient and Therapist doesn't click, their not a good match. 2. The patient isn't honest with the Therapist, they hold things back and don't tell all of the truth that needs to come out and be dealt with.

I hope you're still in Therapy and taking your meds, if you don't get on well with your current Therapist, then find a new one....because depression and all the bad emotions and feelings that come with it, don't just go away.

Dont fight too much with it. Just exist day to day. What is the point of fighting it? Accept that this is your base emotion and simply exist. Why exactly does the sadness scare you? Some individuals are simply predisposed to experiencing more negative emotions. If this is something you have known for the majority of your life, then you need to start accepting it as your autopilot emotion.

I have been there and seen a therapist, that did not seem to help me but having clozapine does help, plus keeping my self busy with out side work, riding motor cycle, seeing friends when I can as long as I am feeling good. There. Are times I feel lazy, tired, depressed, . Almost feels like a panic attack or heart attack, but knowing my heart is good, I do my breathing exercise and relax and with in a hour I feel good again. Hang on, try some breathing in threw nose and exhaling out like u r blowing into a straw.

You may need to talk to your doctor for possible adjustments to your medication. Sometimes it takes a while to find the right dosage for the patient. If you are still seeing a therapist, decide whether or not you feel like they are helping you. If they are not, change to another therapist who you feel you can connect well with. Sometimes it takes seeing several different therapists to find the right one for you. If you are looking for new friends, join a gym or take a class such as a painting class, dance lessons, cooking class, etc. Continue to talk with us at this site where you will make a lot of new friends who are ready to listen to you and offer support.

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Hi there, sorry to know that despite of medication and therapy, the feeling of loneliness is still too much to handle. But I'm also glad that you seek help and not deteriorate from that point.

Besides therapy and medication, are you doing anything on the side yo help you cope? For eg, reading or exercising, Might be good to do some light exercise like brisk walking or jogging. Exercise is good to increase the 'feel-good' feeling in you. Give it a try. Be well and take cared. God Bless!

Please don't be scared.. I've been suffering from anxiety and depression for a little over two years and let me tell you that it does get better. No matter how hard your day was or how sad you tend to feel, just exist and breathe and that you are alive for a great purpose and reason. I recently started using essential oils to help pull me through my anxiety and depression and it seems to be helping me in the right direction. Before I wasn't that social or want to hear any one elses input but today, I felt like I should share my stories and hardship and maybe one day I can help someone else see their true potential while I reach mine! There's nothing better then knowing someone who went through the same stuff you went through and learning new ways to cope or to even find a little ounce of hope. That is all it takes, just a little ounce of hope and it will work it's way out eventually with hard work!

""Not that I really want to control it""",
Then your depression will continue. What you Want is what you will Get. When you start to shift the way you are thinking, this will change how you feel...your thoughts come before your emotions...your' making a choice to stay suffering...each day if you say to yourself, I Will and I Want to get out of bed, shower and dress you'll be Amazed at the change you will feel, and the ability to live your life...tiny goals will give your life purpose and you'll feel a sense of achievement...try it, just might work along with therapy and meds...best ofluck!