Antidepressants can be a very important part of our treatment, but they are not enough all by themselves. Are you in therapy? What sorts of things are you doing to help change things for the better.

It sounds like part of your issues involve poor treatment from others, namely you being there for them when they need somebody, but them not being there for you. Next time somebody "needs you" for something remind them that they were not there for you when you needed them, and that you are sorry, but you can not be there for them at this point in time.

Standing up for yourself is an important part to moving forward.

gentle hugs.

Please know you're not alone in this. You can talk to us about what has you feeling that way and we're here for you. The person who talked to you on the phone, that wasn't nice of him. You need to find better people. It's good you're seeing a doctor and taking care of yourself too

Sweety, I don't want to make you feel worse, not in any sense of the word, but we have to remember that we do things for others because we have big hearts and we care and just because we do for others, doesn't mean it will always be reciprocated. We just have to love and know that someday, it will be returned to us. I'm really really sorry to hear that someone on a suicide prevention call said they had to go because they had another call waiting. I wish you would have been able to ask for a supervisor and tell them how you were treated because that is just wrong in all sense of the word! I called one myself about a week ago and the person I talked to took the time to look up Therapists in my area. Please don't let one poorly trained person, make you feel as though you are not worthy because you are! We are here to help you and you can pmessage anyone you find you have a connection with and can help you through this until you see your doc on Monday. If things get really bad, please promise us you will call 911 or go to the ER. In the meantime, we are here for you. Hugs Gramybear

I have called "crisis lines" twice. One was with Parents Anonymous or something like that, for prevention of child abuse. The operator let me talk as long as I wanted, even though I did preface it with the statement that I was not in danger of hurting my children. She validated that I felt stuck and unappreciated. I was calmer after the call and really that's all I needed.

The other time, I called the crisis line at the university I was attending. A friend of mine had committed suicide, and I could not stop crying. I was not in danger of harming myself, but I did have uncontrollable spasms of grief. I was encouraged to call back if I needed to talk longer, and was offered some counseling resources that I already knew about. I received validation for my feelings.

Both of these crisis lines were not specifically for suicide prevention. I have never called a suicide prevention line, but it may well be that they have to limit the time spent on a call where the person does not seem suicidal, in order to serve others who are. Hopefully though, at a minimum they would provide a resource to assist the caller getting through whatever they are dealing with, even if they can't spend time on it themself.

God bless you and keep you.