Personally, I often think about escaping life, but it's not necessarily a suicidal thought. Like you said, it's always lingering there in my mind. It's not like I contemplate it, but it's more like a fantasy of being free of this world. I don't know if that makes sense.

I think it is a fine line between depression and thoughts of suicide. I think maybe it is somewhat inevitable to have thoughts of suicide when you feel so low, but also being able to hold on to the good things there are to live for, those things are there every day if you choose to see them. So it sounds to me like you need to start thinking of reasons to live than the alternative. There is so much beauty in the world, and that, for me, keeps me going. I hope it can for you too. Blessings.

I think plenty of people with depression feel suicidal and plenty of people don't. It's okay to feel down, but recognize when your thoughts start to turn to actions. If that starts happening, let your therapist know, call a suicide hotline, or go to the hospital.

I was recently hospitalized for my suicidal thoughts. As much as I didn't want to go, it ended up being very helpful. I rested, people took care of me and life's demands were put on hold.

I agree with LittleSadie. Focusing on reasons to live helps me too. That might be harder to do if you're feeling low, but I'd recommend moving your thoughts towards that direction.

Today I decided I'd find a new reason to live each day. And that helped me get through the day. Remember that nothing is wrong with you. Im sorry If your therapist made you feel that way.

A good friend of mine from Daily Strength who is very loving and has lots of friends told me recently that she is suicidal every day. I was very surprised. Apparently some people hide it better than others. I don't think your psychiatrist was criticizing you in any way although you can always talk to her about her comment. Tell her how you interpreted her comment and how it made you feel. Then ask her what she meant by it. Always better to clear the air when we aren't sure what someone means by something they say.

Thank you all for responding... Yeah I understand that I need to try to think of positives but in all honesty that's way easier said than done.. I did ask her what she meant by what she said.. Her response was in her experience her clients with depression were not often suicidal.. And well since I am often suicidal she said that there was something wrong with me.. Not a helpful statement on her part.. She's my psychiatrist though not my therapist.. Idk its made me feel more isolated than ever because she said that

scaredgirl, look up research or percentages of people with depression and suicidle ideations, I'm not sure what the psychiatrist was trying to do or say, but that would not have been helpful to me in anyway, we get enough shit dumped on us from the environment that we don't know how to fight or deal with it instead of it coming from someone who is supposed to be helping us. I think I would consider finding a new psychiatrist. she sounds completely un-empathetic. sounds like she may be in the wrong field.

It is a positive thing that you're seeking guidance from a therapist. Have you expressed your confusion and how her comment made you feel to her? Sometimes things get taken out of context in our minds and it's always best to seek clarification rather than to assume we know what was meant. I'm sure it was never her intention to make you feel worse.

I was depressed for many years without being suicidal...
Then...
I developed anxiety...
Then...
I started having suicidal thoughts...
I never thought I would reach a point where I could rationalize suicide...
But I did...And I do...
I have three well thought out plans for committing suicide...
Not many people know that...But my therapist does...
And he told me...For me... It's okay....It helps me to have my thoughts and my plans...
Because when I go into a panic attack...My thoughts and plans are there...To comfort me...And to bring me down from my panic attacks...

Another thing I've learned...Is depressed or not...We can't control our thoughts...Thoughts...Good and bad...Are going to happen...
It's what we do with those thoughts that impacts us and others.

And finally...Your therapist is not you...And doesn't really know what is going on in your head... Don't be so hard on yourself just because of what he/she says about you...

Good Luck...

Sometimes Doctors are just plain dumb. We often think in our heads that they are God and what they say must be right. Sounds like she has limited experience with depressed people. Strange. I've learned to take what our shrinks say with a grain of salt. Take in what i like and believe - and toss out everything else.

Yeah I get alot of what you all are saying.. I think if anything the reason I'm taking this so inward is because I have lot going on right now and I'm having a really hard time dealing so when she said that it was just too much.. It's helped me so much though hearing what you all think I honestly can relate to alot of your different views.. Sometimes just not feeling so isolated helps

When we're depressed we're vulnerable to what people say to us. Now is not the time to be working with someone who makes you doubt yourself and makes you feel worse. Like whit22 said, there are people with depression who are suicidal and those who aren't. And among the suicidal ones there are those who make plans and those who don't. Your doctor sounds very inexperienced and unsupportive. Believe me there are caring doctors out there who don't make those kinds of comments to their patients. I have one of them and you deserve to have one of them too.

Unfortunately because of where I live I have no other options available outside of that psychiatrist... I run into a similar problem with my therapist except I have two choices for that and both of them are not a good match for me