Have you considered talking to a Counselor at school? That would be one option that you don't have to have a parents permission for. Another I can think of would be a Minister at Church if you have one that you go to. Perhaps a Youth Minister, you don't need a Parent's permission to speak to one of them and it's generally confidential. With both of those options nothing would be said to your parents unless you were in danger. Other than that unless there's a Teen Center or Outreach Center in your town/area, they often have social work trained staff on hand also, those are going to be your best bets for someone to talk to in a "Counseling" position that don't involve your parents permission to do so.

I'm sorry that you're having such a hard time. These years are hard enough without your peers making them harder. I'm fairly certain that your not doing anything to cause things to be your fault. Kids/Teens can be pretty cruel when they put their minds to it, unfortunately the target of that cruelty rarely has to do anything wrong. Are there any clubs or extra-curricular activities at school that your interested in? Sometimes when you link yourself with a group in an activity that you enjoy, it's easier to make friends and feel more included and accepted among your peers. Anything you particularly enjoy doing?

Kat

It’s not your fault at all. One thing I learned about bullies is that most times they are even more unhappy than we are. As for who to talk to I would say a friend or another relative like a cousin. Hopefully one your own age or close enough that they have the same mindset as you. If your school has a counselor or something like that. Even the school nurse might be able to help out or at least point you in the right direction. Your doctor maybe as well. You can come here and ask for advice and help figuring things out. Maybe try googling help with bullies. It might have a link to an article or something. Maybe even some places to call.

Try reaching out to your counselors. Let your parents know how you feel. Also you can talk to me!
Ive got my own stuff going on, but i can chat if you need a friend to vent to. Be strong.

I'm so sorry to hear that you're being tormented like this. It can be really isolating when things are going wrong like this. Talking to a school counselor is a great first step. Another option is to text Crisis Text Line. You can chat with a live crisis counselor 24/7 whenever you're feeling overwhelmed. You can reach them by texting "Hello" to 741741.

Wishing you peace.

Thank you for the suggestions. I really enjoy music and my dog so I try for ask much of each as I can. I do feel a bit better so thank you.

take time, really. take the time you need to collect yourself; I reccomend music (especially NF, He can help you). I have definetly been at least partly where you are and I'm not out yet. honestly, the place that your at, even if you can refocus yourself, little thing or big things will throw you way off and then you're a mess again. But once you're collected again you can go straighter; stand for what you beleive! Don't be influenced! one thing that helps me is helping other people. this could help.
p.s. I can tell you some great songs for this kind of thing.

I'm sorry you're going thru this. Bullying doesn't just include physical violence...it's often verbal, emotional and threatening. Don't minimize what you're going thru...and also don't absorb the shame of the injustices that you are receiving.

Definitely agree with speaking with a guidance counselor, a teacher that you like and trust. A teacher could point you in the right direction, and if the bullying is happening in the classroom, they can also address it.

You are young...and bullying can really affect your personality and have a great influence later in your life.

Just remember those bullying you are assholes. It takes a highly dysfunctional person to be able to spew such hatred, with no remorse at another person.

Many times these individuals come from rough home themselves and are raised by jackasses themselves. I'm not saying have empathy for them...but jerks like this don't seem to make it very far in life...except landing themselves in jail, or in court for future domestic violence.

What they say hurts...why would it not? Just ignore it...is just not realistic advice...unless you've been in a similar situation it is hard not too.

So what can you do? First of all...you have some aggression....run/walk exercise some of that anger off. Don't lay in bed and internalize it.

But if you are a minor, it is your job to let an adult know what is going on with you. Chances are if these assholes are picking on you, they are picking on someone else too. So by you telling on them, you're helping someone else too.

Don't let them damage your light, your life goals, your personality, and make you become withdrawn and suspicious of the world. I often see many adults who are affected by the bullying they received when young. Brilliant, kind, compassionate individuals who suffer for decades b/c of some asshole. Don't do that to yourself.

Don't ever let them get you to a point of thinking about suicide.

Reach out and let adults intervene that is their job. Chances are many of them will relate and understand what you are going thru. Their are other students who are in your shoes. You will not be the first to complain about bullying. There are tougher regulations, and education on bullying that exist now then it did when I was in school. Use that for your advantage.

You are a special, unique, wonderful person and you have purpose in this life, and it's not to be abused and threatened daily.

You're a minor and not use to standing up for yourself b/c that's what adults are suppose to do. Let the right adults do that for you and don't be afraid. The shame is with the perpetrators.

Sending you light and love!

Thank you Lavender80. My day hasn’t been all too great. That really helped.

School should be out soon right? Look forward to that. Whatever u do, do ur best to not internalize their shit.

I have prayed for you and sent you some healing energy. Reach out to the group whenever you need! Theres so many that are, have been, in your shoes.

If I could I would beat them up for you!

Sending u light n love! Hope tomorrow will be a better day.

Thank you. I hope everything for you goes well too

Dear Furbydoggo, That sounds really hard. It must feel very stressful. Am I understanding that you are being bullied in school AND at home?
I'm sorry. Do you go to church? Is there a pastor there you can talk with? An older woman you can share your troubles with? Someone who is wise and compassionate?
I would definitely seek out someone like that.
When I was in high school, I felt picked on and unfriended. I wasn't very happy at home either. But I had some good teachers who were like second mothers. Without even sharing my burdens with them, I found that I enjoyed their company just because it felt peaceful to be with them. They encouraged me and made me feel important.
I hope you can find those kind of people to help you get through this time in your life. God bless you! He loves you.

It's getting better. Thank you.

One thing to remember is that the school years are a minor part in your life. Don't ever let others dictate how you feel. You are worth and your special and capable of amazing things. I believe in you