Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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evilynn 07/16/2009

Just feeling sorry for myself tonight. I had a terrible day at work. Some days I think that place is the center of all things stupid. I try to leave work issues at work, some days it's impossible.
And now I'm alone again. I told him not to leave me by myself. That's when I do bad things. No, I don't mean suicide or anything like that. Sure I've thought about it. I think a lot of people do, they just won't admit it.
Sometimes I get a bad thought in my head and I can't make it go away. And it just snowballs from there. I can be quite destructive. I've tried to distract myself but it's not working tonight.

It's going to be a long 3 days.

crzychik 07/16/2009

hugs hun...i am sorry you're having a rough night.

deleted_user 07/16/2009

I understand. Hugs dear xxxxxxxxxxxx

deleted_user 07/16/2009

I'm really sorry. One of the reasons I'm not working much right now (just a part-time, low-paying job from home, though I do like it) is that fear of going back into a work environment where I dread going in every day and have to face people who are less than kind. I sure hope tomorrow is much better for you. ((((HUGS)))

deleted_user 07/16/2009

I can relate to doing bad things when you're alone. Distracting yourself is very hard, but maybe you can find something that will not only let you escape- but something that will express your emotions? I listen to music very loud, while writing when I feel the need to cut. Breathing is just about the most simple and effective coping method for stress (I highly recommend it, breathe deeply and slowly through your diaphragm). I wish the best for you, good luck.

deleted_user 07/16/2009

am sorry it was a shit day at work matey....and yup leaving work at work is sometimes impossible.

hugsss anything we can do to help distract you?

evilynn 07/16/2009

I do dread work mostly because of the people. It's always some stupid drama that doesn't need to play out at work. The petty little grudges and spiteful attitudes are just too much. Adults are not supposed to behave that way.

Some days I just want to stand in the center of the room and scream "GROW UP OR GET OUT! EITHER WAY- JUST SHUT UP!!"

It's not just work today. My family is driving me crazy. Right now I would like to have the power to wish myself deaf.

deleted_user 07/16/2009

ummmm earplugs and a soundproof locked room that only you have the key for?
sorry trying to get you to smile a lil

evilynn 07/16/2009

Thank you Kitter.

Can I have a box of crayons to write on the walls?

deleted_user 07/16/2009

oooh yessss crayons and felt pens....wooopie cushions too?

deleted_user 07/16/2009

You know, coloring while listening to music can be very relaxing!

I have a book of mandalas - they are intricate patterns that you can color - and it is really soothing.

I hope your night improves hon. Are you alone all weekend?

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