This fucking depression.. I am seeing a light at the end of the tunnel but when does it go out? And it will.. In Therapy.. hope it helps..

Hoping it helps too, meandthebeast. I think there are a lot of people who may not realize just how difficult going through therapy can be. It's about a lot more than just being able to share what's running through you.

Good luck with it...we're here if you need us.

Where do I start?

Someone I do love and care about does NOT care if they self destruct because they cannot grow a pair and stand up for themselves from abusive treatment and family blackmail. I feel like crap...but I cannot stand by and be a part of it anymore....for months and months and months I have truly tried to be a voice of reason (not that I was always right) but it stops here because I cannot enable someone to continue down the path of self destruction and co dependency that they are on. They won't even take care of themselves properly (physically and emotionally)....but will bend over backwards for other people and can NOT say no.

It kills me to have to do it, but I have to....for their good and for mine. It is NOT healthy for either of us, mostly them, in that scenario....so I gotta do what I gotta do but it does anger me and makes me sad.....and VERY aggravated.

:(

I'm writing a self-help book that I think could genuinely help others, and I knew exactly what to write a few hours ago. However, now that I am able to sit down and finish writing it, all my ideas are gone! I am having the most severe writers' block and I really hate it! And, I'm having it when I need to not have it the most. Ughh I really want to get this book finished and published as soon as possible so I can help others like me but it's not going well at the moment. It was going well earlier but not anymore. Just another reason to hate my life...

And, I'm really desperate and needy at the moment. I can barely motivate myself to do anything.

I'm isolating myself, even from my parrot, and parrots require constant interaction with people or they'll get depressed and pluck out their feathers. My mom had a friend whose eclectus was depressed and plucking out his feathers, so they had to give him antidepressants. I don't want to be the cause of putting my beloved parrot through what I'm going through but I really can't help it at the moment. I'll try harder to spend more time with him...

And since I'm so unmotivated, I'm really not looking forward to going to my volunteer job at the pet shelter today. I just want to lie in bed all day, go to sleep and never wake up again...

I think it's okay to simply call your brother for his birthday. That's usually what everyone in my family does if they are not able to see each other on their birthdays. I'm completely sure that your brother would understand that you aren't able to get together with him on his birthday because he is too busy and I'm sure that he'll greatly appreciate simply receiving a call from you. Besides, it's the thought that counts. Also, I think it would be especially nice for you to send him a card in the mail. Perhaps, a musical card? I know doing this is extremely old-fashioned but it's an extremely polite and thoughtful thing to do. I've heard that people really appreciate these kinds of things since not many people do these things anymore. In fact, you're supposed to send a thank you card after a job interview and it greatly increases the chance that you'll get the job. My 8th grade teacher received a job only because she sent a thank you card after her interview. The point is sending a card in the mail is a very thoughtful and kind thing to do that people greatly appreciate. It's okay if your brother's birthday card arrives a little late; it's the thought that counts the most and not if the card arrives on the exact day.




The one time I've copied topics in the past, I stated that it wasn't my own and I gave the person who wrote it credit by mentioning their username. Next time you copy a topic, I think it would be polite for you to mention the username of the person who originally created it. Can you do that next time, please?

Thanks for posting the topic. Big hugs to you

This is true Meggie...and I didn't think to do that. So I should now: This is based off of what Summerwind81 has done on occasion; full credit goes to her for the inspiration.

I'm sorry about what both of you are going through...hugs are coming.

A really good friend took me off of his friend list and I feel really sad. I want him back as a friend. :(

wishing I could turn off the "zero to bitch in .5 seconds" button !!!!

My boss is absolutely overloading me with tasks. She dumps everything she doesn't want to do/doesn't have time to do on me. This ranges from watering the plants to vacuuming to generating reports to filing to graphing test results to answering phones to calling on insurances...This of course is added on top of the basic requirements of my job already. I feel overwhelmed and irritated that she seems so clueless as to how long it really takes to do certain things!!

Mine is just a little one but...I am so annoyed by the Pristiq ad in the right-hand sidebar to this page. The creepy little wind-up woman makes me want to scream!!!

In your defense zeeva, that ad is creepy. And sometimes it does drive me cuckoo as well. But in defense of the DS staff I'd rather put up with having to ignore the ad than have to pay a fee to come here.

My dad is dying. I am the only one who visits now, since my sister had to go back home. It is so painful watching him struggle for each breathe. I wish death was easier.

I have been triggered all day long. I should just go have a good cry. Thanks for letting me tell some people who care.

Angela... I am very sorry for what you are going thru ...I also watched both my parents struggle at the end of their lives . It is a very difficult thing to bear !! My heart goes out to you . I will be keeping you and your Father in my prayers ! (((( HUGS))))

Stupid people leaving guns accessible to children. Kids killing each other and themselves like mad out here. 11 year old kills his 5 year old brother....things like that.

Like going on every week here.

Why do children even have guns available like that.

I grew up around guns, started target shooting at age 10. I've taught all my boys, never left guns laying around the house. They were not available to me at random either. Target shooting as a sport.

Why do these kids have access to guns? And some are skilled, parents taught them. They loaded the guns and shot another child.

I don't get it. My sister irritates me to no end, and guns in the house. I would not even THINK of shooting her. Kids today will do it. They take guns to school, and all that.

OK...rant over.

Glad my kids not caught up in anything like that. My heart breaks every time I see it in the news. And it keeps happening.

I am most aggravated that my son's girlfriend of six years, chose to break up with him, over the phone, at midnight one night recently. I have had to watch his poor sad face, and know that his heart is broken. I'd have preferred to be hurt myself...by anything, rather than see him suffer so much. :(

No need to mention me!

But thanks for doing it, and thanks, ML, for suggesting it...you're both very kind :)

Really really fucken aggravated tonite that 3 days of doing relatively well went right down the damn toilet because I let myself become triggered by...I don't even know what. I went from pretty happy to "life sucks and I wanna die (not literally) in about 2 hours. Raged around for another few hours. Slowly coming down now but still angry, and really hate feeling this way. I want me back.

Aggravating as shit.