Yes, many times. I struggle to not let it hold me back, but I got conditioned at a young age to always expect the worst, and that that's what I deserved. So I carry these scars with me as I try to keep putting one foot in front of the other. I feel my depression most in my chest and stomach. My meds and talk therapy and prayer are my tools.

I hope you have a good day.

I live in "the dark place". I have never been "happy" a single day
in my life. I am used to it now. I take my meds so that I can no
longer scream or cry, things society frowns on. But that's all.

I have many bruises from being in that dark place, but somehow, someway, I know I have to pull myself out of that dark hole and find the rainbow. If I allowed the dark hole to keep me down there, I will never find a way out and back to the light. I won't let the devil win. Hugs GB

I feel punch drunk from the mental beatings. I am so exhausted tonight.
Having spent a part of the day in a situation that I drowned in despair
and spending the rest of the day trying to recover, I am exhausted, tired and feel so beaten down.
I am so sorry you feel the way you do.

Yes! I feel this way a lot and it sucks. I am so sorry you are feeling this way. Do something nice for yourself and be gentle with yourself.
(((HUGS)))

~blink~
~more tears~
Three days now ... for 3 days as i have been looking, reading,
trying to feel better.. trying to get out of this most recent dark place only to discover tears running down my face ...

didnt even know they were there ...
but i do keep tissue close just in case ...
and just in case happens often lately...

ohh my goodness...
reading this post and replies made me feel ...
dare i say it...
at home...
~sigh~

~Warm hugs and prayers for peace to all of you~

Thank you so much for sharing you...