Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I really don’t know how I’m supposed to feel about things anymore. I find myself doing things simply to do them but not because I feel any joy doing it. I go to the gym because I know I should but not necessarily because its good for me or that I feel good afterwards and that’s just one example. I find myself just being afraid. Scared to live again and scared to hope and dream again. My last instance of being exceptionally hopeful and optimistic left me feeling barren and scares me into not wanting to believe in anything anymore. I was watching Shawshank Redemption the other day and Tim Robbins’ character mentioned that you either get busy living or get busy dying, and I am certainly doing the latter. I’m simply afraid to hope that things will get better, afraid to hope that I will climb out, afraid to hope that I won’t feel alone all the time despite being surround by people, afraid to hope that I’ll beat depression and my negativity. Afraid to hope, but more so afraid to live again, to believe again.
The greatest things in humanity are to dare and to hope. When you dare to live, then your fear dissipates, and your courage flourishes. Don't be preoccupied with what others may perceive of you - this is superficial materialism that is unhelpful for you. You don't need to seek permission and approvals from others to live. As a human being, what matters is that you are only accountable to yourself, not to anyone else so you don't need to seek approval from another to breathe. Do what pleases you. If today you don't feel well enough mentally to work out in the gym so let that slide and you can always make up for lost time whenever you feel well enough to do so.
Watch upbeat movies, hear a song that gives you good vibes. Don't watch a movie about another's struggle to survive that trigger your depression. Someone else's struggles is their predicament. For the moment, just focus on your own survival and find something in your conscience to form the base of your mental strength e.g resilience, hope, optimism.
Take care, and for goodness sake, ask your doctor for a prescription of antidepressants!