he probably wants to understand you so that he can best support you so i think it's a good idea to tell him if you're comfortable with it. does he know that you have depression? let me know how it goes if you follow through with it.

It's only be 9 months. You don't owe someone your entire back story. If you feel emotionally safe with him, and want to share your mental health struggles with him as a way to be more vulnerable and deepen your connection, that's one thing.

Having mental health struggles, can make us feel like something is wrong with us. That thinking probably lead to a lot of our mental health issues in the first place. But you shouldn't ashamed for being human, for having struggles before you met him.

If you feel you aren't at the point in your relationship where you feel unconditional support and love from him, and feel safe enough to tell him these sorts of things...you might want to wait until you do.

If you still have suicidal thoughts and are still struggling, please reach out to a therapist to get the support you truly deserve. I lost a brother thru suicide, so I understand the struggle.

But if you open up and are vulnerable, and he doesn't receive it well or with a bit of compassion, maybe you should reevaluate the role he has in your life. Mental health struggles are real, and we need supportive people in our life.

Sending you light and love!

i completely agree with lavender. she couldn’t have said it better.

when i had a boyfriend and told him about my mental health struggles it didn’t turn out so well for me. he took advantage of my state and now thankfully he’s my ex! but i def don’t want to generalize, all guys are definitely not the same.

First off, I am so sorry you were struggling with this. I am glad you are still here and hope you continue to get better and can then help someone else thru the valley you came thru to the other side. You are strong, or you would not have made it thru. Pray over when to tell him, and look for the appropriate time and place. Tell him in a way that lets him know you are better now and that you are thankful for him. Some things that can help you and you can share with others that you will help in the same valley are the following: take magnesium to calm your mind body and spirit, and to help you sleep well. Take ginseng to get rid of the sticky negative thoughts that loop too. Take a good multi vitamin to give your body what it needs to deal with stress better. take walks in morning or evening air to refresh your mind and work thru and put behind you the problems you are dealing with. Watch funny shows to laugh, laughter is healing. <3 God bless you!

Thank you for sharing with us. I am encouraged by your willingness to share with us about your struggles. It's very important that you talk to someone very close to you that you can trust about how you're feeling. That doesn't necessarily mean he is the right person. Perhaps you could talk with an encouraging friend or a counselor just to make sure you are safe. I hope that you are feeling well these days and that hurting yourself is not something you are currently experiencing. You are loved and very important and you are welcome to vent anytime.

Tell him is my advice. Tell him it is not his fault that u have these thoughts and u almost did the action. It will come back and bite u in the butt if u don't tell him. If u trust him then tell him.