Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Sometimes I feel as though I am addicted to depression. Like it is a safe excuse for me to avoid failure in the world. I keep telling myself "tomorrow I am going to get up at a decent time and have a productive day," and then I go back to bed yet again. I have fallen behind on everything and can hardly bother to take a shower. When I go out into the world I feel awful, like a loser because everyone else gets up at a decent time and goes to work every day and gets things done. I can barely work 2 days a week and I do a crappy job no matter how much I want to be better. I have been offered a full time position but I can't imagine having to be somewhere at the same time every day and learn to do a complex new job that involves interacting with people all day. When I do work a full day I feel great at the end of it, but most of the time I hate myself and wish I could just stay home and live in my bed.
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It's National Doughnut Day!Which three would you like? (never mind the calories, fat, or sugar content; just go with what you would pick if none of that mattered and whatever health issues you might have that would keep you from eating one in real life can be cast aside for this exercise as well... have at it!)
Saying prayers for both of us.
I also relate to what you've said! Depression hurts, but it would be so much easier for me to check into a hospital and just throw in the towel.
Im also tired of this day to day struggle. I think about what I can do instead of killing myself. But honestly, that seems like the best alternative. Im tired of existing this way. I don't want to work, im getting tired of school, im afraid to live alone, I have all these unwanted thoughts.
I don't know what will make me feel better. So I completely understand your desire to stay in bed all day. If it helps, when im actively doing things with my body or mind, I feel okay. Can you try a little yoga or exercising?
I used to exercise and lift weights ...but just stopped like 4 months ago...I keep telling myself I'm going to get back to it because it really does help...It really helps to be active but for me it's so hard to get started....but then the days and weeks past by like time in a bad dream, which reminds me how i woke up this AM with a very creepy nightmare....oh it was terrible i can't even repeat it.