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I have been depressed for approx. 5 years now, probably long than that, but that is when I sought treatment. I've been on different meds over the years and am currently taking Cipralex (sp?). It was working very well for quite some time, but, as of the last few weeks, it seems as though I'm drowning in a sea of sadness and depression. I've gained weight, even though I'm not eating any more than I used to, I'm tired and lazy, uninterested, disgusted with myself...........you all know the signs. I know I have to get to my Drs and maybe have my dosage upped, but, even that seems like a daunting task. I feel as though I shouldn't be around anyone right now, that I'm bringing them down. My hubby does not help things either because he just expects that I have ALL the answers and that I'm the 'strong' one and should be able to figure everything out. Yes, that is generally me, but, I told him that I'm not doing well right now and he seemed upset because he has to take the bus home from work, instead of me dragging my butt out of bed at 11:30 pm to pick him up (I have to work in the moring). Now, having said that, i feel guilty because he would do it for me! Frig, I feel like I could bust out crying over this, which is dumb because it's not that big of a deal! ARGH!!!!
Take things one at a time. Nothing has to be done all at once.
Nothing wrong with a good cry either. It well might help to lift off some of the burden you feel that is riding on your chest and shoulders.
Your hubby may be upset for now, but he'll get over it I'm sure.
Please take the time to turn some of the nurturing care you rain on your family, and rain some on yourself as well.
First item on your to-do list? Please call your doctor.
if it's been five years on cipralex, i would say it's about time to change meds... most meds stop working after some time, and if this one has worked for you for 5 years, you had a long run on it. no shame in changing meds... this is just one of the things we have to do...
I don't think you should try to push yourself to do more than you can right now. Only the things that you absolutely need to do. Focus on getting in to see your doc and have your meds tweaked so that hopefully you won't feel this way much longer.
Take good care!!! I hope you're feeling better soon!!!
But to repeat ... crying isn't a weakness ... it is a healthy outlet ... I'd be more concerned if the tears had dried up ... I had always told my loved ones who worried when I cried ... don't pity me my tears, rejoice in them with me as it means I'm still feeling
It is a sign of strength when we know we can't do it on our own and we reach out for help.
Thank you all so much for 'allowing' me to feel so sad.
It sounds like you have a plan to call the doc and get the meds adjusted, and I think you are on the right track. (((((((hugs)))))))