hello there and thanks for sharing. yes, I have felt that way before, you're definitely not alone. try not to dwell on it and enjoy the fruits of your labor. hugs.

I think it's very normal for people who have had depression longterm to worry about slipping back in to it. I like you have depression and it's more than likely it will be with me until the day I die... Although i'll never be free of it,i do manage it much better these days..I really think thast the key to living with this illness "self management" Keep using those tools ReedNotRed...and fight like hell. You really do appreciate the good times when depression is pushed to the back on your mind..although it's always lurking and can rear it's ugly head at anytime.. I dont mean this in a negative way btw...sorry if it's come across as negative.

Peace,love and lights..

Mark

still in it but always a fear of what happens next time? Can I ever do this again? Thats why this time I need to ensure that I have a plan to start acting when the "little ' things begin...at the very least I will get some piece of mind..Take care and keep on Enjoy

i know that feeling all too well and im about to tell you something you might not want to hear. it will happen. you will have your up but your going to have your downs as well. sometimes it will feel like a never ending cycle and that might even lower your spirits more. but my advice is hold onto those happy moments. keep a journal or something that is only dedicated to to good days and the good feelings. go into detail about why you feel happy, focus only on the positive at least while you are writing. that way when that bad day comes you can pick it up and reread it and know that its worth fighting to get to tomarrow cuz just maybe tomarrow will bring another smile.

i definately feel that waym in fact i expect to feel depressed again, not to the point of hospitalization though. i hope not.

for me, i look at it as something i will hve to manage for the rest of my life. good days, bad days, i want just pleasant, not too eventful days.

like browneyes said, ur not alone!

i have felt that way....enjoy the up time for as long as it last....hopefully for a really long time......i agree with each of the other post...i have dealt with this for 26 yrs....it's a roller coaster.....but i do try to catch the downhill slope very quickly before it gets bad. browneyedgrl saying is so true "try not to dwell on it and enjoy the fruits of your labor" very wise lady

Hopefully the better you feel the less those fears will continue. Concentrate on the positives :)

I think we all probably do...

I've been in and out of counseling a couple of times. The tricks I've learned generally work. But there will always be times of relapse. But that's okay. We're only human, we're not perfect. Sometimes we simply don't have the control we wish we had, and that we need to have to make the trick work. Just be sure that when and if you do slip back into depression, you maintain a healthy view on it - remind yourself that this is temporary, and continue to do whatever you can to pull yourself out of the funk.

I've been there. Embrace the "happy" moments...try not to get in a spot where you "will" yourself to relapse by thinking too much of it. HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!