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Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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blackhawkdown 05/26/2015

So I went to my doctor and we discussed me going as an in patient to get myself sorted out. We discussed ECT and though it was put out there by me it didn't get the reaction I thought I was going to get. I got met with a glare ....ONLY as a last resort is what I was told. I guess my fears are justified about ECT.
As I went to stand I got this twinge in my side and my doctor noticed it and asked me how long has that been going on? Oh a month or 2 figured I strained a muscle. With one simple touch by my ribs pain ripped through my side. I just had xrays and ultra sound my doctor said a specialist needs to be consulted before a diagnosis and that's in a week. For now all bets are off for me to get in to the psych hospital. It feels like someone has a voo doo doll with my name on it ...Im so depressed right now and to top it off my anxiety is through the roof with this wait I have to do. Im so tired of it all.

Misssy2 05/26/2015

Ok, so no ECT...but why not inpatient?
If I could afford inpatient...I would drive myself to an intake and check in...you don't need your Drs permission....tell them you are losing it and feel like harming yourself..you will be checked in.

I see the uniform...after they take your history it will be a double reason to check you in.
Hope you feel better.

gordos4 05/26/2015

Did he say why he wouldn't let you have ECT? I want to have it too, but my psychiatrist keeps skirting around it. I think it's the only thing that will help at this point. Medication doesn't work anymore. I hope your tests come back normal & it is just a muscle strain..

gramybear 05/27/2015

I'm praying you get to feeling better really soon. I need you to make it to California. But if not, I also want you to come first before anything. You are far too important to me to have something happen to you. I would be devastated. With Love and Hugs GB

blackhawkdown 05/27/2015

My pic is my inner warrior...I wanted to serve but failed the medical. My GP wants me to wait till I get a second opinion on whats going on before committing myself to a treatment plan as an inpatient. If I have to have surgery its better I guess to be messed up rather than screwed to the floor while my meds are being adjusted. Like you gordo....my GP is skirting around ECT and gave me a last resort speech.

whatswrong19 05/27/2015

OMG! I was thinking the same thing about myself, like I am being sabotaged every which way I turn at work. I haven't done anything to anyone for them to hate me enough to want to sabotage me. Then I find out that it's not just my computer that's all fucked up, it's everyone's. Made me feel better.

blackhawkdown 05/27/2015

Im sorry you lost me with your post.

stevebhopes 06/01/2015

I am certainly no expert on ECT but from all I have learned it is just like the shock treatment of old in a more refined form. Sometimes it can really reduce depression but it ALWAYS produces brain damage to do so. Memory takes a huge hit. I don't know about you guys but I have enough brain damage already from dope and meds and psychotic episodes and prefer to be able to find my way home if I go to the store. It is an electric lobotomy, plain and simple. This all may be God's way of saving your frontal lobe bro.
DON'T LOSE HOPE!!!

gramybear 06/01/2015

How are you doing sweety? I sent you a card and it came back and I don't have any idea why. I'm puzzled! Hugs GB

blackhawkdown 06/01/2015

Im ok I guess GB Im putting my energy into restoring my car to its glory days. (cleaning the junk out of it lol)
Steve thanks for the words of encouragement. Im focussing my energies on cleaning my car...not just a wash but waxing and total interior detailing. Ive been at it for 3 days and Im about half way there , yes Im being extra fussy. hahaha

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