I have been off this board for about three months. In that period of time, I was doing very well. I'm still a lot better then I was, but have been dealing with over sleeping. I sleep on average 11 hours at night and then feel compelled to take a 2 hour long nap during the afternoon. I do not know how to break this cycle and even if I am not tired, I feel great anxiety if I do not nap or sleep late. I think a lot of it has to do with boredom and trying to escape depression and anxiety.

I just started writing music after not having anything to do with music for 7 years. Obviously, I am beating myself over it after receiving a lot of negative comments about my music on www.garageband.com. Once I was writing all of these songs, and now it is hard as hell for me to continue writing, although I still do but at a snail's pace. You can hear my music at www.garageband.com/germanautumn or www.myspace.co/germanautumn.

I am still going down on my medicine in preparation for trying to have a child. I am down to .5 mg of Klonopin a day, and am shocked that I haven't been having panic attacks. It really does turn out that drinking is what was causing them, as I haven't had a serious attack since I stopped drinking 2 years ago.

Although I do some graphic design at home, I have been without a job for 2 years now, which makes me feel rather useless. I apply for jobs every now and then, but I am truly afraid that I will start having panic attacks again if I start working. Then again, I am so bored at home I need to find something to do. I really want to get back into Ninjutsu, but not only can I not afford it, but my husband doesn't like the idea of me grappling with grown men. I left my old dojo because my sensei was sexually harassing me, so I don't blame him for being worried. Still, it drives me nuts that I am not still studying Ninjutsu. I suppose I could study Tai Chi or Tae Kwon Do, but it is NOTHING like Ninjutsu.

So, how has everyone else here been doing?