Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I'm a fan of alternative history books and novels, such as Harry Turtledove's "Great War" series where the Confederacy won the Civil War. I was re-reading the second book, "Walk in Hell," when I began to think of how my life could have been different. These scenarios weren't of the happy-type, but of where my life would have ended in tragedy. What if I was never found when I was wandering as a toddler? (talking pre-Adam Walsh days here) What if a certain man in a car decided not to take "no" as an answer for ice cream offer a few years after that? What if my fall was from a greater height? What if I was one second slower in braking my bike? What if I hadn't stop when I "won" my first fight? (I didn't at the re-match, which I "won" again) What if I hadn't flashed that knife when I noticed someone following me one late night walking to my apartment? What if I did decide 1996 was as good as it was going to get? What if I turned right instead of left?(I had almost forgotten this one until the Doctor Who episode of the same name) What if I had stayed in Las Vegas?
I found myself wishing I had done the opposite of what I did. If I had, I wouldn't be here suffering as I am. As it is, I haven't done anything of significance. The world would be as it is even if I had died decades ago. I seriously doubt that will change in the future. Opportunities wasted on me that could have benefitted other more deserving and far more capable than I.
I found myself wishing I had done the opposite of what I did. If I had, I wouldn't be here suffering as I am. As it is, I haven't done anything of significance. The world would be as it is even if I had died decades ago. I seriously doubt that will change in the future. Opportunities wasted on me that could have benefitted other more deserving and far more capable than I.
What rules dictate that the next person would be more deserving? You have been given the things you have been given and they helped make a whole, whole that is deserving, that is capable. Plus there is no sure fire way to tell if you wouldnt be in this position in a different set of circumstance.
You are clearly an intelligent person who deserves to be treated as such.
"You are the only one who has to live your life"
"YOU have to make it happen"
You cannot know what might have happened had you made different choices. Life can be awfully random!
You are deserving of happiness, but you have to find it and hold onto it yourself.
Take care.