What is stopping you from going out? Is it the crowd or the driving or the need for isolation?

Yes...Yes...and YES!

All I want is to be alone...to process everything I am going through...and I can't ...I just can't....

there is so much I need to do...so much I want to do...but I just can't get into doing anything...I start...and then...well I just lose interest...

If I do go out...everything and I do mean everything annoys me...I actually left to go pay the bill...when I got there, they were helping two people ahead of me...it took forever (all of about 5 mins) for them to even acknowledge me and then when one person started to help...another interrupted him and sent him off to do something else and I had to re-explain what I was there for!!!!....and to top it off, they had the radio on loudly in the background and it was just annoying to me....

so I left and went to get some breakfast and all the background noise just annoys me...phones ringing...people talking on their phones LOUDLY...people laughing....everything...all the fucking noise!!!....ITS THE NOISE....and the people....I don't like people!!!1


I don't know what it is...I'm just dead on the inside....

UGH!!!!!

I know the feeling exactly.

the state of being overwhelmed

thats where your at

slow down - divide all the things you need to do into small steps

write them down - and do only one thing per day
=)

I know how you feel, I hate noise and crowds too.
But I am all alone and have no one to help me do
things so I am forced to take care of things on my
own. Working is hell. But I have no choice. If I don't
work I'll be homeless. I hate driving too. I hate
everything I have to do in life. I wish it would all end.

I am just like you! I hate crowds, I don't like being around a lot of people. Evertime I go for a walk in my town, some idiot is always trying to run me over. One wonders why I am not already in the hospital from a vehicle hitting me but knock on wood I guess.

Everytime I am in a store, its always hectic. There is always something stupid going on. Like the family who can't choose which milk to by and hold up the milk isle for an entire minute or so while I am patiently waiting. But I wait, because its better to be a understanding person, then to get up in their grill and be an ass.

Yes I've talked over the phone to make a restaraunt to go order, same deal there. So much freaking noise in the restaraunt that she can't hear me. Its like, why can't you take your cordless and go somewhere where its not noisy. Asking people to have common sense is like trying to ask a dog to use the toilet when he wants to pee.

Anyways, thanks for sharing, I understand what you are going through. I like to stay isolated myself, I am in a comfort zone and I don't like to leave it. Which is a big reason why I won't use a dating website to meet someone.

Ashley

WELL...so I managed to make it school for my 2pm class...this is the only time I am happy...the only time Ican focus...anyway...

hurting101...thanks for understanding...

mouse22082013 ...overwhelmed! slow down, divide, small steps, write them down...one thing per day......OKAY...thanks for the suggestion and I will try it....

heretic...I am all alone too, no one to help me...that feeds my need to be in control...but now...I am spinning out of control...

Ashley - thanks...as for people and common sense...they just don't have it...that is why I avoid all contact with people...I just isolate...even from family and friends and FB (hehehe)...

Thanks again for the replies...now I'm going to get on with another day.....UGH...YUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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