Yep. I know how you feel. Maybe you can't get forty days but at least two weeks? What commitments do you have?

wow i know exactly what you mean. because i feel the same way. omg i want to run away somewhere any where!!! sooo much im in phisical pain

Forty days!!!! I wish!!! But a thing that has worked for me a time or two or three, is a silent retreat. Many organizations offer weekend retreats of various types. I do a regular 12 step weekend retreat twice a year, when I can. The retreat usually starts on a Friday evening at the retreat center, there is a meal, and the retreat leader will give a short talk. Silent retreats offer you a place of your own, and a set of retreat guidelines. The retreat finishes on Sunday afternoon.

You can check it out on line by googling spiritual retreats.

Take what you like and leave the rest.

If you have children, ask your husband, and family to take care of them for a few days because you have important business to take care of... YOU... Then find a KOA, because they are safer then just a camp ground. Get what you need, and go camp out for a few days and just think. Bring paper and pen to write your feelings and thoughts in, bring some upbeat music to listen to, nothing depressing, and just spend the time that you need to just be you. That is what I would do. And if you have a dog, bring him.

See if the hubby would watch the kids for a couple of days and go to a motel. I would love to do that but my husband just doesn't understand that I need time away from him. He is very understanding that I have bipolar and everything that goes with it but he just doesn't understand why I would need time away from him. He is retired and I am on disability so we spend all our time together,.

ksmimi
I can't believe your husband doesn't understand why you could possibly need some time for yourself. I'm sure if he needed it, there would be nothing else to discuss.

I understand Ksmini. Both my ex (whom I live with) and myself are on disability. Sometimes it gets a little much seeing him day after day, 24 hours a day! Sometimes I would like to run away. But, like your husband, he would not understand, it would just start a fight. I would end up not going anyway so why start the hassle?

Maybe you could get out of the house more by yourself. Would that help?

UGH!...fuck...shit...damn....I got away...had to go pick up my son and truck...and it was good...but I'm still frustrated - I still have to many things to worry about to take time out just for me!!!

why oh why is the life so effing hard? ... I am content - I don't have anything - and I happy that way - but I can't make it through life that way!!! - so now I am frustrated...

I have everything I need...but I have nothing else...and when things come up...like rent for my son, a college freshman - I have to lie steal and beg to come up with it - and I hate that!!!!

UGH...how can I be so content without money - yet need so much money to get by? Fuck - Shit - Damn!!!

Well?